Recently, one of my friend has some relationship problems and she is very troubled. She’s asked me for my opinions on her situation. Well, I am lost for words and I do not know wad to advise her about her situation. But everything just reminds of a song by Redwan Ali – Would You Be There… The lyrics is like simple, but straight forward and good…

If I were blue, would you be there for me,
And whisper in my ears that's ok.
Would you stand by me, let me hold you tight,
And say you love me one more time.

If I feel good, would you slow dance with me,
And touch my lips with tender loving care,
Would you die for me, would you run with me,
And never look back..

Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
to take my breath away?

Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
to take my breath away?

Would you be there..

If I am away, would you still think of me,
And wished that you could hold me now.
Would you die for me, would you run with me,
All the way ...

Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
to take my breath away?

Would you be there to save my soul tonight,
Would you swear that your love is always true,
Would you say that you always be there,
To kiss my pain away,

Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
to take my breath away?

Would you be there to save my soul tonight,
Would you swear that your love is always true,
Would you say that you always be there,
To kiss my pain away,

Would you be there ..... for me ...

 

I remember posting this song before, so now I am reposting it again but this time partly for my friend to listen and also for another reason… Will you answer a definite YES to these questions if your other half ask you these?

Today after work, I took the company bus back to Bedok. I went to Watsons to look for moisturizer that can save my fast drying up arms and legs due to long hours of exposure of air con room. Haha… How I wish my face can dry up as well but it jus gets oilier. Sighs… Oh anyways, that is not the main point of this post. The main point is I saw some interestingly named skincare products. 

 

The brand of this interesting products is Formula 10.0.6. Their cleansers are called best face forward and so totally clean. They have a mattifying moisturizer called seriously shine free. A oil control mud mask called no time to shine. Haha... Don’t you think the names are so straight forward but yet creative and interesting. It catches my attention and make me wan to bring one of these interestingly named skincare home. But considering the fact that my skin condition is getting from bad to worst, I better don’t try to be funny. Haiz… Talking about skin, my skin is at its worst condition now. But I refuse to go and seek a dermatologist. Its expensive. Well, my skin is seriously bothering me but then I guess I cannot spend money on myself anymore. Reason being tuition fee loan and pc loan is here. I am digging my reserves to repay a lump sum of 2.2k for the pc loan and starting my tuition fee loan repayment on Jan next year. This is the first time I feel that my finances are so tight. Previously, I only experience tight spending account crisis and stole a bit from my savings account to survive. Now I really must cease all stealing from my savings account and rely solely on my spending account to survive. Finances are tight but I will survive. Money can be earned. I jus got to work harder for cash. I have been projecting my finances for the year 2010 and I decided to repay $500 per month for my tuition fee loan. I need cash… So if anyone of you all got lobangs to earn cash just tell me… haha…

I am in office now... Waiting for colleagues to come back from meeting and go out for lunch together... I don't know why since yesterday I have been feeling down. I don't know why I am feeling this way. Haiz... People ask me to not think so much but the problem is I never think at all... I just suddenly feel sads without any particular reasons... What's wrong with me? =[

Today I am on half day off. I am just not feeling right. So I decided to go home and rest.

Found this very nice song by Xing Guang Champion - 徐佳瑩. The song title is 失落沙洲. Its very touching song.



又來到這個港口 沒有原因的拘留
我的心乘著斑駁的輕舟
尋找失落的沙洲

隨時間的海浪漂流 我用力張開雙手
擁抱那麼多起起落落
想念的還是你望著我的眼波

我不是一定要你回來 只是當又一個人看海
回頭才發現你不在 留下我迂迴的徘徊
我不是一定要你回來 只是當又把回憶翻開
除了你之外的空白 還有誰能來教我愛

又回到這個盡頭 我也想再往前走
只是越看見海過天空
願意和沒有你分享我的感動

我不是一定要你回來 只是他有一個人看海
疲憊的身影不是我 不是你想看見的我
我不是一定要你回來 只是當獨自走入人海
除了你之外的依賴 還有誰能教我勇敢

除了你之外的空白 還有誰能來教我愛

I went shopping for my convo ball attire today. I am going simple for this event. Minimalism is my style for this ball. Haha... Simplicity is beauty. I don't think I need a blazer. I am wearing a plain white shirt from POA, blue nautica inspired skinny tie from AX, fitted grey straight cut pants from some cheapo store in bugis, white slim belt from VOL.TA and white patent leather shoes from Zara. Haha... I supposed most people will wear blazers... I will be something different from the crowd... Haha... My shopping conquest... Haha...

Its the Chill Out celebration with NBS Class of 2009 at Timbre Old School tonight!!! But... ... I didn't go despite concientious efforts from different groups of NBS pals persuaded me to go. I am sorry guys... I really didn't feel like going. Reasons that I didn't want to turn up for such a great event are:

1. I was too tired (Main reason).
2. Without concession, travelling expenses have increased and going for the event will result in more travelling expenses incurred.
3. There were cock up in my salary payout which annoyed me as well as made me so broke that I didn't want to continue spending.
4. Wearing contact lens from 6.30am till 11pm and beyond is bad for my eyes.
5. I hate going to Timbre Old School because you have to scale the flight of staircase which has ten thousand steps to reach the tip of Mount Sophia where Old School is situated.

So ya... I should meet you all at the convocation ball on 25th or for those who are not attending the ball, we meet on the actual day of convocation. If all else fails, we can always meet up at our own time ya! =] I know you all miss me. I will make an effort to meet you guys soon. Cheers. =]

Anyways, two nice songs by Wilber Pan... =]

Thanks everyone who was here for me when I was down... =] I am fine now... =]

I am extremely sad now... =[

I folded a paper aeroplane with a pamplet that was given out at tanah merah mrt station this afternoon. How nice if problems can fly away with the paper areoplane just like that. How nice if I can forget myself, forget sadness, forget everything and start over. The truth is I can't... A lax of control for my emotions lead to irrevocable damage time and again. Can I start over? Do I still have a chance? I certainly hope so. No longer will tears grant me another chance to start over again. No amount of sadness can help redeem myself. Its all my fault. I am not even fit to apologize. I already lost the right to do anything to slavage the situation...

There is somewhere I wish to go now... I haven't felt like going there for a long time... Is my time up? I guess its time life goes back to normal for me. Its all a beautiful dream. In this beautiful dream, I experienced happiness that I never did experienced before. In this beautiful dream, I got what I thought I would never ever get in my entire life. I don't want to wake up from this beautiful dream yet I shattered it myself, I turned it into a nightmare myself. I took happiness for granted so now life will go back to normal because I never cherished my chance to stay happy in this beautiful dream.

Am I ready to wake up and get back to my normal life? I am not ready, but I guess I have got to face it. Unless, there is a miracle which I don't even dare to pray for.

Tingling breeze, sparse crowds, clear blue skies, sparkling water, will be a nice sight that I will enjoy from time to time soon....

Very funny mehz???

Ecstasy by Koda Kumi. Nice song... =]


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I was watching the Ultimatum on Channel 8 at 9pm. I like to watch the show because of the theme song - 寂寞光年 by 刘力扬. The lyrics does describe the kind of feeling I once had many years ago, some time ago and maybe even now I experience the kind of feeling described in this song. I can feel the song... I used to like songs because of their melody only. But nowadays, somehow I like songs because I listen to the lyrics, the 口气 (the way the singer expresses the lyrics) and the kind of feeling that is to be portrayed by the song. I guess that is "the feel" that chinese pop is always talking about. Behind every song there is a feeling to be instilled in the listener, behind every singer there is a story to tell. That is why the same song can sound different when sang by different singers because they are now telling their story to portray the feeling that is to be portrayed by the song. Haha... Okies... see see... the lyrics is good...

是谁从我天空摘走了星星
一转眼 眉头聚满乌云
从来快乐悲伤都自己横行
忘了我也值得被关心

一双手一个梦
一路上不断的俯冲
痛到忘了要怎么喊痛

漫长的寂寞淹没我的难过
我的世界是零下的沙漠
其实我也想要拥抱的温柔
融化这颗坚强的泡沫

漫长的等候让人特别失落
锋锐寂寞把天空都割破
还有谁能够紧握着我的手
陪着我期待消失的彩虹

是谁将阳光都剪成了雨滴
天灰了 快乐总有限期
从来都陷在孤独的流沙里
忘了我也配被人在意

一个人一直走
看着梦像做了又空
精疲力尽有没有哪里可以停泊

漫长的寂寞淹没我的难过
我的世界是零下的沙漠
其实我也想有拥抱的温柔
融化这颗坚强的泡沫

漫长的等候让人特别失落
锋锐寂寞把天空都割破
还有谁能够紧握着我的手
陪着我期待消失的彩虹
那是谁的温柔留在我的小手
微不足道却那么重

漫长的寂寞把意志都吞没
整个世界是沉默的漩涡
有谁能陪我手牵着手出走
带我离开空洞的星球

还有什么值得追求
还有什么可以拥有
把怀抱借给我是不是就不再颤抖
有谁能带走这美丽的哀愁
能让我相信被爱的理由

Amei's new album is out! woohoo~ Nice new songs... =] 分生 is a nice song... with a nice MV... Got standard. Its not like the typical emo chinese songs with a story in it... The MV is GOOD! Love it!

Its a friday... Yays... Finally I am at home. Haha... Haven't spent time at home like that for a long time. Haha... I am not feeling very well today. Today half way through work, I saw stars. Haha... As in like really my vision blurred and there were like stars in broad daylight!! Haha... Luckily I didn't faint though I have been having headache for many days. Haha... I don't know what's wrong with my body. Now my stomach is abit upset plus pain. =[ I hope I will be fine tomorrow.

Changed my hairstyle recently... Prefer shorter styles these days... For my university friends who haven't seen me for along time... I may look kinda different... my hair jus keep getting shorter and shorter... Haha... I love my new hairstyle now... Haha... the front view looks simiar to my usual long fringe and spiky top style... but the change this time is the side... I wanted to post a photo of myself.... but seems like blogger is down and pictures cannot be uploaded... hahaa.. too bad....

Came across this song on youtube just now and thought that 这首歌还不错听！！haha...

New song by 曹格... I think its damn nice... =]



曹格 - 掌纹

春去春又回插曲
在我的手心 你落下的眼泪很冰
晶莹的泪滴 轻轻滑过我的一生
春去春又回 我走过的孤独很黑
难忘那一刻 你走进生命的瞬间

我不信命 我信爱情是没有理由
悲欢的注定 在我的掌纹中你在那里
如此的清晰 没有输赢 你是我的命

在我的手心 你落下的眼泪很冰
晶莹的泪滴 轻轻滑过我的一生
春去春又回 我走过的孤独很黑
难忘那一刻 你走进生命的瞬间

我不信命 我信爱情是没有理由
悲欢的注定 在我的掌纹中你在那里
如此的清晰 没有输赢 你是我的命

我不信命
我信命中你给的每个 考验和奇迹
在我的掌纹中安身立命 是否愿意
张开手 你回应
我不信命 我不信命 我只信你