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Monday, April 30, 2007
Woke up early to go for a run... Haha... Came back watched prime time news on CNA and then I browse around from channel to channel. Haha... I watched this show on channel 5 called Beauty and the Geek. Haha... Damn funny. I didn't know such tv program existed. Its about 5 beauties (not so beautiful after all.. =p) and 5 geeks being paired together. Then, they will have challenges like asking the geek to sing and dance and the beauty to talk about politics and the environment. Haha... So the losing pair will be eliminated. I am now rotting... Haha... Called Christina from Bizmax already. Sent out dozens of emails since sat. Internship, part time jobs, temp contract staff for jobs like admin, sales, customer service, banking... Well... No response. Haha... I am lazy to go out to buy my WOW game to play online with abner. Lazy lazy... I just want to rot lahz... Haha... Happy Birthday to Dot!! Hope everything is fine for you in aussie. Stay cheery. =] Happy real belated birthday to Clara!! I remember your birthday... Its 13th april... Just that I got no time to wish you ya! Hehe... Hope that you will stay strong and happy always. Smile. =]
2:15 PM
Sunday, April 29, 2007
I am feeling down now aftering seeing something. I dunno why... I am an emo piece of shit. I hate this kind of feeling. I don't know when am I going to stop feeling this way day in day out. Lots of things on my mind. It has been a long time but it seemed like yestderday. This is what happens when you are too free and bored. Your mind go berserk with all those thoughts. Tomorrow will be a better day. I am going job hunting and running. =] Cheer Ups!!!
11:59 PM
Haha... Have been playing the flash games from this website http://www.eyezmaze.com/ The games look cartoonish and childish but it is not easy to play... Haha...
11:12 PM
Saturday, April 28, 2007
Haha... Tutition today. I recieved crushed pieces of homework from my tutition kid. Haha... He refuse to tell me when is his exams. The parents don't know when is his exams... Weirds. Like, the school never give exam timetable mehz? Now I don't even know if I am helping him prepare for the right subject lahz. Mayb his english exam over le and monday is maths and I am still teaching him english today. Really cocked up. The mum like aren't you supposed to know when their exams are? Like... erm... I know its May lahz... But how I know when exactly are the dates for the exams? Weirds. Nvm... I don't care!!! Can just go and die lahz... Give me my money after every four lessons can liaoz... I am damn irritated... So in the end I decided to cut my hair. Haha... Cos its really very thick and messy lahz... So after cutting... Feel much better. Not so hot and can style better lahz.... Yay!! Haha... Went to get my black specs ready for reservice. Haha... The specs salesgirl say I look cute. Haha... I feel so flattered. Blush. Haha... =] Oh... I saw a nice cap at bugis street. Got this star with arms and legs print on the front of it. But... well... I scared like too childish. Haha... So don't buy lahz. Save money. Exams is over. All my taiwan dramas finished downloading on Vagaa le. Yay!!! I watched the 热情仲夏 episode 1 just now, damn funny. Its from the same producer of hana kimi. So those people who like hana kimi's jokes may like this show oso.
6:08 PM
Friday, April 27, 2007
Haha... Yesterday I felt like a Stats guru and my house became a call centre for people to ask me questions about stats. Haha... Damn funny. In the first place, I am like got 1 day to study for it only, so apparently I am super chui for my stats. Well, but guess I got the smarty look and everyone thinks I am smart, so alot of people asked me about stats yesterday. Haha... So today the paper was so difficult, I am really chui. This is the most chui paper ever. But well, its finally OVER!!! Don't think about it anymore. Haha... Yay!! So went to Taka sushi tei for lunch with michelle, yf, and wq. Haha... Wq left after the lunch. We went to play pool, and walk walk after that followed by dinner at nydc. Loads of fun. Haha... Now that exams is over, its time to plan for my holidays. What am I going to do? Hmmmz... Haha... First I need to buy a bag... My bag is chui liaoz. I want another Fred Perry bag!! But... There is only one place that sells authentic Fred Perry product, I think there is only one and only one Fred Perry shop in Singapore around Ann Siang Street or Haji Lane. Forgot liaoz. Haha... But well, can't afford it so... Settle for something else. Nevermind... I got three months to look for it. Don't think I will need to carry bags during the holidays. I am going to teach more tuition per week on the pretext that YOUR SON'S EXAMS ARE ROUND THE CORNER!!!! HE NEEDS MORE REVISION... Haha... But I know the more times I go teach this kid, the more he will get 10/100. This kid is %#%#^(*&^. I don't know what is his bloody problem. The maid called and told me he tore all the homework I gave him. Den I heard him screaming at the top of his voice: "FUCK YOU!!! I HATE MY MUM! WHY SHE ASK TUITION TEACHER GIVE ME HOMEWORK??? I WANT TO CRUSH HER V*****." Mind you he is only 9 years old. Its just 2 pieces of worksheets. Whats the big fuss? Just do... Don't know leave blank. I go teach you during next lesson lahz. Its like the slightest amount of work you give him, he will make a big fuss and stop listening to you. Please this kind of son... Next time... grow up don't expect him to repay you back for bringing him up. The mum work like in two jobs, both cashier at Sheng Song and Shop and Save to put him through education, tuition and hire a maid to look after him. I feel so bad taking her hard earned money. So I thought that if I am going to give more tuition each week, I will give a bulk discount. So normally 1 lesson, 1.5 hours I charge $37.50. So if one week I teach 2 lessons, I will charge only $70 instead of $75. Okie its just $5 difference, BUT it may mean a smaller burden to someone else. The $5 can go somewhere else. Like for the mum to buy lunch for herself to eat instead of eating only one tiny piece of honeydew for lunch when she got the maid to cook a plate of chicken cutlet complete with fries, fish fillet and coleslaw for the son as lunch. The mum sounded very depressed about his son when I called her just now. She said in chinese: "Do you think that my son is beyond hope? Please help me... You have gone through education, you must know of ways to motivate my son to study hard just like how you motivate yourself to study and get to uni." I was like... In the first place, your son and I are poles apart. I know I need to study hard because I know my parents work damn hard to put me through education so that I will provide for a better life in their later part of life and of course for the better of my future too. And this kind of thing is like I knew it since I was young when I never did see my Dad at home until his only off day on Sunday. Of course, studying hard doesn't mean all lahz... But studying hard at least give you a piece of paper which speaks volume about you when you apply for work. "WOW, first class honours! This guy must have put in alot of time and effort studying. Meaning if he work he will put in all his effort also." For this kid, it is like he never understands anything. His ambition is to be a hooligan as stated by him whenever I try to talk some sense out of him. But of course I couldn't tell her all these so I just told her, "I will try my best but I would stop giving your son homework because he goes berserk when I give him homeworks. So don't compare other tutition kids with a lot of homework to you son. Every kid is different."
11:00 PM
Wednesday, April 25, 2007
Chem elective exam yesterday. Haha... Left after one hour plus. Econs exams today. Erm... Can do... Hopefully can get A... Haha... One last exam to go... I am in no mood to study. Haha... I shall start tml morning. I saw something and I finally understand. Its just different. I don't belong there. Why did it fail? Because there was a misfit. Why did it all disappear? Because it wasn't supposed to be there from the start, you force them to be there for you. I should have known it. But it is difficult to let go. Some people can take days, while some take years. It has been a year and to be honest... I... shall just keep it to myself. It is for the better of everything. Everyone chose the right path... It is better to suffer alone... Emo emo me... It is not doing me good... But well... To say that I had been happy all this while I must be deluding myself but I definitely am trying hard to be. Of cos to say that I am depressed it is abit too farfetched, there were definitely happy moments and times when I feel love. But, I am just not ready. It isn't fair to start a race when you are not ready. Haha... Okie... But well... I am definitely more positive recently... I don't think so much... I can just put down things fast. But well... some things are easy to pick up but difficult to put down. So... ya... To let it not bother me, I will find some things that I like to do... There are a list of things I want to do but I foresee that I do not have the financial capability to embark on any... Here is the list: 1. I want to learn playing keyboard and guitar 2. I want to learn graphic design 3. I want to learn fashion design 4. I want to learn driving 5. This one don't need money but... it seems quite difficult oso... To grow fatter... Haha... 6. I want to upgrade my wardrobe (mean buy some new clothes lahz... Haha...) 7. I want to learn more singing techniques 8. I wished I had a Miyazawa flute so that I can play all my favourite pieces everyday. 9. I want to play volleyball... but well... er... who want to play with a lousy noob like me? Haha... 10. I want a part time job with a HIGH HIGH HIGH HIGH pay so that I can fulfill some of my wants listed above. Haha...
5:49 PM
Tuesday, April 24, 2007
My Fred Perry bag announces its retirement on 24/04/07, 2.05pm. I am so sad. Its my favourite bag. I wonder if it can be cured. It was a cool, and peaceful afternoon when I was packing my stuff into the bag to get ready to go for my electives exams. The zip of the bag was fine. As I placed it standing on the floor, it collapsed and the zip spilt open. The zip "teeth" flew out and the "zip-head" came off. That is the end of its life. It can only stay in the cupboard until one day I have to throw it away. Sobz... So sad... =[ I hope is doesn't bode a bad omen. Chants... May the force be with me... Wish me luck for my exams...
2:07 PM
Time flies... Haha... I am left with miminal time... Chemistry elective is easy to study, I was amazed by how I could remember the chemistry thoeries I learnt in sec sch or jc. Haha... Obviously, chemistry is in me. "First in Chemistry" title in sec sch is not a joke. Haha... My chemistry is pro!! Haha... I am beginning to ask myself why did I choose business and not some Chemistry course like Louisa. Haha... Anyhows, I hope I can get a A for this elective despite the fact that I am quite unsure about my mcq answers for the past year paper. Nvm! May the chemistry guru force be revived in me tomorrow from 5pm to 7pm!!! Haha... And then we will be near the end. Econs is going to be a flop. I realised it is quite hard to cramp everything inside my head within a night. It is time to analyse trends over the years and spot topics to study. Its just 3 choose 2 for each section. May I be charged with the clairvoyance to spot the right topics and get yet another A I wished for. Haha... Everyone press on... Its gonna be over soon. =] Haha... Funny song by stefanie sun - 咕叽咕叽. There is this new boyband called Lollipop inside. The one which I told yanfen got one member look like her bf one. Haha... Enjoy...
12:26 AM
Sunday, April 22, 2007
Haha... I spent 2 full days studying for econs - reading through notes only to find out that I couldn't answer 80% of the past year exam questions. I am feeling demoralized. Haha... I hope it is an open book and I wouldn't have to remember every single thing and I can go exams NOW! Its like you know what the question is asking but you can't tink of how to write the answers. For extreme cases, you don't know what to write. You just know the question belongs to this topic. Haha... I cannot say I am dead anymore. If in reality we know we will die this way, any normal human being will try to increase their chances of survival by going another way. So yes... Reading through notes and thinking that you understand isn't enough! Its not like accounting, understand and pluck in the numbers and work your way through to A. For now, I need to focus and remember what I understand! Okie... Mugging till 230am today, wake up at 830am tml to continue until 12pm lunch and start on my elective. No more failure of plans. I will survive this way. I will get at least a A- for both the elective and economics. Ready, steady, go!!! So, no more feeling of dying, if you know you are dying, go the other way to find survival. Haha... Till then... Jiayou everyone!! The mugging kia is not feeling sleepy anymore, he didn't sleep a wink today. Haha... Its all in the mind!!
11:52 PM
Saturday, April 21, 2007
Where do I find the time to blog during the exams period? Haha... Well... Stduied the whole day... Micro econs left one chapter and chem elective left 5 lectures. Haha... Thats about it. McDonalds for dinner, mum didn't cook. Damn hungry now even though I had oyster omelette just now for supper. Haha... I think my stomach got worms and my body is going nuts. I napped 4 times today. Haha... Each 1 hour. Power right? And I am still feeling sleepy now. Haha... Panadol didn't help my headache. Extra food didn't help. Extra sleep didn't help. Extra books didn't help either. Stressed? Nahz... I am kinda relaxed after the 2 "major" essay writing papers taking my own sweet time to read up for chem electives and go through econs chapter by chapter. Sleep too much it is!! Haha... Tomorrow will be a better day. =]
12:23 PM
Friday, April 20, 2007
Haha... I am blogging again... I am feeling sianz from all the studying. Now for the non-aca part of the day. Haha... Funny act number 1 today... When I reached boon lay today, I thought it was still early and I feel damn tired and restless so I thought redbull will help. So... Went to NTUC at JP to get one. Okie... Happen to meet Susan on the way. Haha... Oppz... spotted drinking redbull before exams... Kinda weird and funny. As always I am weird and funny. Well, the results are redbull don't help like how it helped me feel energetic for the whole day till midnight during the army days when I need to do SOC. Haha... In those days, drinking redbull really helped me run like a mad bull towards the finishing line with skeleton battle order and the don't how many kg rifle within 9plus minutes leaving me feeling damn awake even until at night. Now, redbull can't even keep me awake for a few hours. Haha... Funny act number 2... Abner keeps saying that he will fail marketing exam when his answers are like ZAI!!! So I told him wun fail one lahz... If want to fail I fail first lorz. Haha... Okie Best... curse myself. Haha... Delightful moment for the day... Sister came home late from her out audit at little india, and bought grilled chicken wings and ah baling for me to eat. Yay!! Yummy! I was still searching for biscuits to eat. Depressing moment number 1... My favourite Fred Perry Bag is spoilt. Can't zip it up. This bodes a bad omen. I fixed it time and again but the zip just CMI, it spilts open almost anytime anywhere. I got no money to buy new bag. I don't have bags that are big enough to hold all those books we need to bring for open book exams. Haiz... Maybe I should bring a plastic bag to school. Haha... Depressing moment number 2... I heard a song that reminds me of the depressing memories. Flashbacks from time to time... I can't focus anymore. The problem with staying up late at night... You start thinking of the past. So best is make yourself tired and sleep as early as possible and wake up early the next day. Never stay up late at night. You start thinking nonesense. As usual, I am always having mood swings like that. Haha... One moment I feel damn happy and energetic and one moment I feel rather depressed. Haha... Studied only 2 lectures of chem electives. Haha... Plan failed. I need to sleep again. Haha... Damn tired. The mugger kia can't take it anymore. Haha... I shall revise my mugging strategy tml. Haha... Yawnz... zzzzzzzz...
11:37 PM
Haha... Marketing exams today... The questions weren't like past year papers. It stunt many people. But, I felt good about my answers. Its not that I wrote alot and I wrote really great points that differ much from others, but I just felt very good about my answers. Haha... Lucky me... went online to read on service yestderday night after recalling what the marketing man said about service being intangible, variable and etc. in tutorial. Tada! Spot on! the paper asked a question about service. Woo~ I applied what I read... The extended marketing mix is my answer... the 3 other Ps on top of the conventional 4Ps - People, process, and physical evidence. Okie... Then again this type of question is like answer with common sense will also involve the three dimensions. Haha... Nevermind... I hope the power of moderation will push me up to a A for it. Haha... But well, it may turn out to be like FM, hoping for moderation to push me up to A but in the end got a B. Well, its over... No more brooding over it. I am going to take a power nap later, wake up at 9pm and study my elective. It is going to be intensive mugging the next few days because elective and econs paper is back to back. So... I better get A for econs... So must mug like a crazy horse. Elective no need mug so much... Just some take in some chemical sense and you will easily get 90% but sadly the paper contains a substantial amount of mcq where there are definite answers and my chemical sense tactic will fall flat. Hence, tonight I am going to finish mugging for elective from 9pm to 3am. Tomorrow wake up at noon, and start revising microecons; at night regression tutorial for stats, sunday macroecons; at night econs mock exams conducted by myself. Haha... Well of course this is a ideal plan... but I should make sure the reality isn't far from ideal. Haha... Wah... Erm all about studies again... Haha... =x
7:19 PM
Wednesday, April 18, 2007
After an intensive OB exam paper, it seems like the whole world is resting for the whole of today and have stopped mugging. Haha... Of course there are some exceptions. Haha... I really don't know what to study... So I am asking around what to study for marketing. It seems like there are hell lots of chapters but actually they are all building on the core concepts. So I am taking a risk like what I did for IT last sem. Don't read the entire textbook read bits and pieces. But something different here is I don't know which bits and which pieces to pick out and read. So I ask... It seems like everyone is as lost as I am. Or they aren't adopting this bits and pieces strategy and adopting the full strategy. Haha... Okie... I have decided to start tomorrow. Just do past year exam papers. Thats quite enuff I suppose. Haha... And I wonder why people like to ask me "What do you think is important?" Like erm... You think I am the setter of the paper? I don't know man. Okie its like similar to how I bother people like Susan with "what you studying for marketing?" But haha... I don't know if I irritate but okie I am sure the context and the feeling I give when I asked is quite different from the people who asked me "What do you think is important?" Well, gotta experience it to feel the differences. Haha... Enough said... I tink I am just MEAN. But thats me... Haha... And ya...please don't come and tell me die lah die lah when clearly you mugged like siaoz already. It don't work for me... You want to die... go and die... no need to tell me. Okie I sorta told Susan that I feel hopeless for marketing also but I didn't say die...Or did I? Haha... But mine was just expressing worries that I won't do well. Haha... So tats the difference... And please this particualr person obviously damn mugger one dun whole day walk around telling people aiya die lahz die lahz. It is irritating to a person who haven't mugged as much and feel even more like "dying". Okie... Better stop slamming. Chants...
8:22 PM
Tuesday, April 17, 2007
Exams tml!! Haha... Nervous... I am surfing net now already. I always buffer a few hours before the exam day to relax be it studied finished already or not. Haha... Exam tactic no. 1, clear, calm and composed mind helps in better analysis. But of course for OB tml I am not really calm like last sem's accounting. Haha... I was quite demoralized just now when I could only finish 2 and a half questions of nov 05 paper within 2 hours. But ya... Candy is right... Cannot be so defeatist!!! Now must pyshce up!! Haha... Then it occured to me... I must first believe I can finish than I will be able to finish... OB taught us this right? Self-fulfilling prophecies. Haha... Okie... Morale backs! Haha... Wah.. there is a online spree for guys on Keeptouch. It is a Taiwan website. So nice... I like the bape cap. Although it may be fake but who cares rights? As long as its nice! I am having a liking for caps ever since the chapter two girl ruined my hair and my hair became difficult to style. Haha... I am saving money by not cutting this chui hairstyle because I will need to cut it short come june when I go back to reservice. So just leave it there lahz... Haha... Cut so nice style so nice go out people see say eeekkzz... so gay. Haha... Wtf... dress up means gay mehz. Walau eh... Someone said that to me in shcool "dun you feel gay wearing nice clothes everyday?" Its like erm whats wrong with wearing nice nice everyday? I feel good in it wad! Only girls can dress up mehz? Guys cannot? Haiz... These people are either jealous that I look good or they just cannot appreciate my style lahz. Haha... The same person asked "Your jeans like kinda of tight... makes you look gay, must wear baggy one mahz!" Er... like baggy style what era one? My jeans is not tight its just fitting. Just nice... Okie make me look bamboo but wearing baggy jeans will make me look like a walking bamboo with flaps of extra cloth flipping and flapping around making me look silly and sloppy. Haha... Enuff said... I think I must sleep liaoz... If not tomorrow I will feel damn sleepy and cannot perform. Everyone jiayou for your exams!!!
10:43 PM
The exams is nearing. This sem is different. I don't feel a single bit prepared. I don't really remember anything I read from the textbook. I only remember things that I discussed with Abner and things I sorta applied on real life people as I was reading the tetxbook. There are whole lots of details that I couldn't remember. My notes aren't good. It is chui as Abner suggest. Some of the stuff that only A students can see are not inside. I expressed indifference and refused to read the tetxbook again. I will rely solely on my notes during exams. I just don't like reading textbooks. Last sem, biz law was the only textbook I read extensively. The rest was like never finish reading. But yet I had the overbearing confidence that everything will be fine and I could answer people's doubts at the slightest wink. This sem I am like huh? got this thing? Oh no... Go see... Wah!! really got!! Reads abit... Aiya won't come out one lahz. Haha... My need for achievement is slowly diminishing. My need to do my best in everything is falling. Haha... There is a change. Come to think of it. Why was there such a great desire for me to do my best and achieve excellence? What is it that is missing this sem? Nvm so much about that. My needs are not totally gone, it just decreased. I still wish to be able to do well and get all my As. Haha... I am so going to regret if I don't do well because I know myself that I am not putting in my 100% effort. Well, hope that everything goes well. A B+ for OB is enough. I shall rely on econs and stats for my As to push my gpa up. Haha... I am toking about academic stuff again. Haha... perhaps I should change my blog's name to a boring undergraduate's life - its all about studies!! Haha... I am not looking forward to the end of the exams but I want to finish the exams fast. Ironic isn't it? Haha.... Not looking forward because I will feel lonely again. Nobody will be free to go out with me. Haha... Okie... Occassionally lahz. But most of the time I foresee that I will be rotting at home. I shall start planning my training in preparation for reservice in june. Will look for an internship. Hopefully they reply. Thats all about the plans for the whole of the 3 months holidays. It will fly past at the speed of light beofre you know it it will be school again. Haha... How exciting can my life get? It is time for me to think about how to make it more exciting other than just wanting to get good grades. Haha...
1:04 AM
Friday, April 13, 2007
Marketing tutorial today. Haha... It turns out to be one of the most efficient lessons ever. It is true that NTU is quite chui in that their tutors only teaches seriously at the nick of time when exams are coming. Haha... And my belief of not judging a book by its cover is reinforced today. Haha... Sometimes, people appear so zai and pro when in fact they are just ya ya papayas. This person asked "when they ask marketing mix do we talk about 4Ps?" Like DUH!!! Marketing mix=4Ps. Not say I have anything against these kinds of people but its just an observation and it is true that some people study so hard but yet results don't show. God is fair. Perhaps they are good at something else except studies. Haha... So parents should never push their kids so hard, when they see that the latter studied hard enough and yet results don't show - it is just a signalling effect that the kid may be a talent in other field. No amount of tuition can help him be number 1 in class. Okie... Better stop my cynical point of view to life. Haha... But face it, the cynical perspective is reality when used sparingly but a delusion when used excessively. The tutor revealed the "subjected to change" grades for project and case study. B for project, A for case study. Well, expected. Everyone else got A for project. Accept it... So be it... In general terms, tutors aren't looking solely at efforts... sometimes they are looking for content, sometimes they are looking for teamwork, sometimes they are for zest and energy, sometimes they are looking for laughters, sometimes it is just a battle of who can embarrass themselves the most. There isn't a standard guideline or marking scheme to it. It is ambigious. It depends on the mood, the perception, the attitude, the values, the ethics and the personlaity of the tutor. This brings us to OB concepts. A tutor who values time, penalise everyone who neglect time. A tutor with negative preception for the group develops a selective perception - picking up only bad points to a presentation that supports their negativity while discounting good points that threatens their negativity. In addition to that perhaps the negative perception stems out from a first impression error where the tutor holds on to this perception based only on first impression. Nevertheless, some pervert tutors, male or female alike are subjected to the attractiveness stereotype - relating attractiveness to warm, kind, independent, strong and etc., thereby developing self-fulfilling prophecies perpetuating a pymalion effect. Such, barriers to social perceptions are on the rise amongst tutors. This only prove detrimental to the students and affects the objectivity in grading. As a result, I believe that the moderation is a legitimate way to counter such views. Of course, every coin has a flip side. Having said all these negative points perhaps on the brighter, more positive and less cynical side, some presentations really have plus points over others although it is not visible to us but visible to the tutors. Perhaps in some intangible aspects which possesses high degrees of variability like that of a service a company can give to a customer. Some customers like this kind of service while some customers may not derive any value from such service. Thats all... Its a long entry talking about my weird and nonsensical viewpoints again. Well, it is viewpoint so it is my persepctive of looking at it... also subjected to my personality, attitudes, beliefs, perceptions. It is not directed at anyone, anywhere whatsoever, howsoever related to such viewpoints. It is just a trend I feel and observe since I started my higher education in university. Everyone mugging for exams... Jiayou!!!!!
11:53 PM
Thursday, April 12, 2007
It's a long day. OB lesson in the morning, it never fails to be a waste of time. Haha... The tutor knows my name surprisingly. Haha... I thought I was non-existent in the class. She gave back the creative assignment. Haha... Best! Grades were based on the self-evaluations. Had I known that, I would have rated more than 90% lahz. Haiz... Honesty doesn't pay off. I rated myself 69.99% cos I really think my standard is like that with the 3 page limit where there were little room to elaborate. But well, she added some marks to my evaluation and the total finalised grade is 79.99%. The best was she didn't even bother to mark some of the student's assignment and quickly dismissed them by saying "I agree with your self-evaluation." Haha... Written test for comm mgt. I am such a scattered brain. I forgot to write the subject line!!! It is like instant failure??!! Haiz... I am so going to get lousy grades for a 2AU subject. She gave back the presentation tasks evaluation. Haha... Like mine was all towards the high side... but on the paper she wrote no kiwi fruit!! Haha... Jokes... I bet she likes to eat kiwi fruit. The long day warrants a break. I didn't mug today. Idling around, chatting on msn, trying to plan a study plan with Abner that we will strictly adhere to and finish mugging everything necessary on time. This seems like mission impossible. I haven't touched my chem elective, economics, stats. How? I got thurs, friday, saturday, sunday, monday, tuesday and BOOOOHOOOOOO EXAMS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hope I can maintain my GPA above 3. Thanks for the GPA 2.5 curse. I hope it never happens man. I may not have time to study but even if I don't study I am smart enough to get gpa more than 2.5!! Haha...
1:43 AM
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
Essential Brew at holland V with candy, yf and wq yestderay after school. We were supposed to study there but we end up chit chatting... Haha... Its good to be kept relaxed in this exam season where everyone is like super stressed out. A relaxed mind aids in better absorption when studying. =] However, I am quite lost this sem. Why is it that I don't feel as stressed out as last sem? Last sem I felt the heat so I mugged damn hard. This sem I felt the heat but I remained cold. Its not like I never mug this sem, I have been mugging damn hard this few days, but the feeling and desire to score well is not there. Its gone. The direction is gone. Last sem, I could tell myself to do this and that by what day and I do it. This sem I just didn't know what I can tell myself to do. I mugged in a disorganised fashion studying bits and pieces of each subject here and there. I hope evrything should be fine. Haha...
11:04 PM
Monday, April 9, 2007
I got a virus via MSN this morning. Omg!!! Suddenly patrick sent me a photo album.zip file and I accepted and opened it. Tada! I got the virus! It is a back-door trojan... OMG!! My desktop is now infested with this virus and I dare not go onto MSN using my desktop. Once I login to MSN, it starts to automatically send out the photo album file to all my contacts. I am sorry if I caused disturbance because of this virus, I didn't send any photo albums! The virus tanished my reputation as I was telling Kugen who also got the virus. Haha... I scanned my pc with Avast antivirus and to no avail, it was unable to detect it. So I used the Avira AntiVir, it detected the virus and i deleted it. But, I am still skeptical of whether the virus is completely removed from my desktop. So fo safety reasons, and to avoid further annoyance to my msn contacts, I shall not log in to msn until late at night at 2am where there are lesser people online to test if the virus is still around and it is sending photo albums in my names to other people. Thats all about the most exciting part of my day. Other than that, it is eat, sleep, study... Haha... Meet the nerdy tomatoez! Haha...
12:16 AM
Saturday, April 7, 2007
Tuition in the morning... the kid didn't tear away my homework. He did some of it. Haha... He begged me to not give him homework but I just don't care. Homework for you... Since the mother believes that more homework = better grades and the amount of homework was a reflection of competency of the tutor, i.e. more homework = good tutor. So more homework for him to do and for her to see that her money is well spent with "benefits and values" that homeworks can bring. Well, this is customer oriented service - I give what you want! Haha... To me, this will only affect the kid's interest for studying and deter him from wanting to learn more. Whatever... Snail slow progress for revision. Well, shall not elaborate on it... My blog is becoming a academic calendar recording everything about academic stuffs. Haha... So... better stop... Haha... Boring life... Home alone... Sisters went shopping, mum went shopping with aunts, dad working. Me mugging at home with periodic stones and rots. Teabreak time. I bought myself shanghai fried buns and fan tou at tampines eastlink food court after tuition. Yummy...
4:42 PM
Friday, April 6, 2007
Good friday today. Its a public holiday. Yay!!! I woke up almost at noon and went for lunch at old kallang airport hawker with my parents. Kway Chap there is nice!!! But it was a long queue. When it was served I realised why the queue was so long... It is really nice. The "guo" is smooth and translucent, the soup is not oily and not too salty. The "dua teng" was so succulent and the pig trotters were so soft and chewy. NICE!! Haha... Came back home mug like siaoz... Did two chapters and I am starting on the third chapter for the day. But... I decided that I should rest early and do it tomorrow. While I was studying, I realised some of the theories are like something that we see in some people in our everyday lifes. One "referent power" - an elusive power that is based on interpersonal attraction. Some people just have this sort of power to influence people into believing most of the things they say. Perhaps I could come out with something called the "illusionised referent power". Haha... This sort of power works on the same theory as referent power which is the target respects the agent and wants to be like the agent; the agent is often individualistic. But here, it takes on a deeper perception of the agent illusionising the target by always presenting himself as someone of profound knowledge and wisdom hence building charm that attracts the target when in actual fact the agent in question is not as great as the target thinks he is. Haha... Two, an influence tactic called "ingratiation". Apparently and clearly, someone have been using such a tactic on me to influence me to share some notes with him. Flattery such as "you are smart, you are genius etc." (just some examples, not the exact words) are some of the "ingratiation" tactic this particular person used. Well of course the skeptical character of me, immediately identified his motive of flattery as brownnosing and dismissed him with some lame excuses. Haha... Don't worry abner it's not you. Haha... You are my bestie mugger partner who always spur me on during the exams period and remind me never to slack. Haha... I will send all my notes to you even if you never ask for it. Haha... =] OB is actually something about human behaviour that we observe everyday, but we have to study for it because something so simple have been put into thoeries in complex english forming the OB language where failure to use them in the exams will result in lousy grades even if your main idea is correct. Tuition tomorrow... I hope my kid never tear away the homework I gave to him last week. This kid likes to tear away my homework and say that his baby sister tore it just because he don't want to do that piece of homework. Haiz. Okie... Time to rest... zzzzzz...
11:59 PM
Thursday, April 5, 2007
Stats quiz today... Haha... Our paper was relatively easier as compared to the tues and wed papers where they test things like unbaised estimator, power of test etc. Haha... I didn't know how to do a full 6 marks question. Wrote some rubbish. Haha... The rest I got correct. The results are out on edventure. Haha... 14/20. Haiz... 70% only... plus a 60% for first quiz it totals up to a lousy aggregate which may lead to a lousy coursework grade. I hope I don't cock up during exams and get at least a A- for stats. Mugged for OB... One chapter down within 3hours... Plus summary notes written. The textbook is so difficult to read and the lecture notes are so disorganised. Why does the notes have things that are not in the textbook and the textbook have things that notes don't have? Haha... Confused. The notes are like following the old text which I also have cos I bought second hand only to find out they changed the book this sem. The old text is like much much easier to read. Haha.. Whatever... I am resting for today. Tomorrow morning kuay chap for breakfast!! Yummy! Hahaha... For now... a couple of biscuits, snacks and hot milo for supper. Hahaha... hungry ghost... I realised tat I am like shrinking day by day... getting thinner and thinner overtime... It must be due to stress... Exams sux... OB sux even more... the names ire** and shir*** sux even even even more.
11:55 PM
Wednesday, April 4, 2007
Today I was super pissed off with two bloody fuckers in school. They are not students but tutors. I shall not elaborate. Of course, the occurence of some events set me thinking about this question: Do people really mean it when they say thank you or sorry? Haved the true meanings of these words diminished when they are overused as a way to express courtesy in our everyday life? Consider this scenario: A is talkative. She loves to comment on everything that is in her sight. As a result, sometimes, her vast numbers of comments becomes an irritant or even an insult to another person. When she realises it, she apologises. A's actions perpetuates in a vicious cycle and at the end of each round it is the word "Sorry". How much is A's sorry worth? What is the point of A saying sorry? Consider another scenario: B is a passive persona who is restrained and conservative. C is an active, enthusiatic persona who seeks self improvement and advancement. B and C are colleagues. They were assigned to work on a project together. B and C collaborated well and were pleased with their analysis of the project. Before handing in the project proposal, C tells the boss that he didn't like the part of the proposal which was handled by B when there were general consensus on the idea at the point of time B and C did the project. Judging from the individual's persona, the boss sees B in a bad light, feeling that B have failed to collaborate well with his colleague C in the project. C appears to have not done that on purpose and is griefly sorry. He expressed his apologies with the word "SORRY!" How much is C's sorry worth here? Didin't he knew the content of the proposal? Why didn't he challenge the idea before handing in the proposal? If he didn't buy the idea why didn't he oppose it in the discussion phase of the project? The above scenarios when seen in a cynical way would illustrate the lost of the intended value in the word sorry. Both cases illustrate an event where the person apologising should have known that their actions are undesirable. But they do it nevertheless. What is the fundamental problem here? People act without thinking? Or in a skeptical point of view - they are just people who says sorry for the sake of saying sorry after which continuing to perpetuate the same actions again to end off with the word sorry to ease tension. I don't know. I am staying neutral. What are your views? Or am I talking nonesense here? Haha... Some points to ponder about in our busy life where the word sorry and thank you are words that are used the most within a single day.
11:15 PM
Tuesday, April 3, 2007
It is a day of OB OB OB OB OB OB again!!! What the hell. Two OB assignments due tomorrow. Never mug for exams again. Never study for stats test again. I am so dead. I wished I had more time. First the OB article analysis, second the creative shit. I gave up on the creative shit. Everyone writes more than 10 pages, but I wrote only 3 pages. Despite the fact that many people told me not to adhere to the OB tutor's 3 page limit, I followed it and ignored the norm. Many also told me that since we will be handing in one more copy to the course coordinator, the tutor may not be the only one marking the assignment hence it would be safer to follow the norm. I couldn't care much, I am lazy to think of anymore bullshit for that picture. In the mist of doing OB OB OB OB and more OB... I think I accidentally pissed someone off or in fact many people. Oppz... I AM DEAD SORRY ABOUT IT! When I am busy I stop thinking and sprout nonesenses without thinking. Haha... And of course when I am busy, fed out, tired, grumpy, irritated with all these OB shit or tons of work, there are alwaes jokes from people to loosen my tense emotions as these people understand the need for me to loosen up. Haha... Bloody Abner say I am stupid. Please come to look for me after lecture on thurs for a couple of punches!! Nonesense and more nonesense and we derived a positive relationship between a tutor and grades of a student. The matrix works this way: If the student like the tutor, the student will get good grades because the tutor stimulates interest for the subject. Conversely, if the student dislike the tutor and the tutor is a piece of shit who can't teach, chances are the student will get lousy grades. Of course in any matrix there are exceptions which does not conform to the normal operations of the matrix. The matrix works on a general basis. Haha... Can see that both of us are so totally freaked out for the coming exams that we gone crazy and come out with all these things. But it is true to a great extent, at least for me. Haha... It is 1.49am and once again I don't feel like sleeping again! I am in some kind of trance mode. Like you know ff8 limit break and ff10 overdrive? Haha... the characters of the game when they battle and is dying soon with little health point left, they will enter this mode called limit break in ff8 and trance in ff9 where they have extra sets of skills to use and their bodies changed colours? Haha... Get the picture? I am changing to white... and the extra skill I unleash is 1. stone, 2. rot, 3. stay wide awake for a long time. Haha... Clearly going mad... I shall try to sleep again... 1 sheep, 2 sheeps, 3 sheeps, 4 sheeps, 5 sheeps, 6 sheeps, 7 sheeps...
11:59 PM
Monday, April 2, 2007
Econs quiz was a breeze, I checked my answers 5 times to make sure I never make any careless mistakes like the previous one seeing decrease as increase. Haha... Reached home fell asleep and woke up to do nothing. No mugging for today. Its OB day. Doing the OB article analysis mind map and the creative thinking shit. Haha... It is so late after I sorta completed it. Perhaps I shuld start revising for OB. The exam is 15 days away. I am freaking out so do many others. Pimples are breaking out like nobody's business. Haha... Tomorrow will be a better day. MUG!! JIAYOU!!
11:54 PM
The effects of being too stressed about work: You feel energetic, but when you touch the work you are supposed to do, you can't concentrate. This is bad. I studied econs for the whole weekend. But my mind is now blank. I can't remember much of the things I have studied. My 1,000,000 gb harddisk in my brain is faulty, it has too many bad sectors that everything cannot be saved in it nor can any programs be installed. It is infected with an unknown virus. I am dead once this hardisk cease to load the OS. I am having the same kind of feeling I had for FM last sem for every subject this sem. The feeling of unfamiliarity with the subject. The feeling of low confidence for my understanding of any of the topics.The feeling of uncertainty. I don't want a B grade for this sem's subjects like FM. I don't want a GPA of 3, I want at least 4. It is not as though I hvn't been mugging hard enough. I have been doing so just like what I did for FM last sem. But the fact is that this feeling is worrisome. I don't like this feeling, I don't want this feeling to lead me to a lousy B grade. Like many said, a B grade in uni is below average. I don't want to be in the below average range. I must mug even harder tml to get the kind of confidence I had for accounting last sem - the overbearing confidence on my level of undertsanding and familiarity in the subject that could even eradicate stress up to the point that I stop mugging for it one and a half days before the exams. It is now 232am and I have to wake up at 530am tml. I can't fall asleep. Is it just stress or are there other things holding my back, pulling my down and tripping me off? The answer is to just relax and let go. Only with a relaxed mind can I attain my best performance. I will try to fall asleep. counts...1 sheep, 2 sheeps, 3 sheeps, 4 sheeps, 5 sheeps, 6 sheeps, 7 sheeps, 8 sheeps, 9 sheee... ...
2:03 AM
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