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林宥嘉 - 殘酷月光

Yesterday due to unforeseen circumstances, I was too sad to talk to anyone. I apologize to everyone whom I ignored the whole of yesterday night. I was really in a state that was unfit to talk to anyone. Sorry my dear friends who were very concerned for me when I disappeared and didn't talked to you all. Its times like that that I realized I have so many true friends who truly cared about me even though they don't really talk to me on normal days. You all know that I am not someone who can be so sad until I fail to 强颜欢笑 and still be able to talk to you all like as though nothing happened. But yesterday I was. So you know how serious it was but please don't ask me what happened and why I was like that yesterday. I don't want to talk about it anymore and I am doing fine now. =] Everything is back to normal and Zhanyi is back to normal as well. Once again, I thank everyone for your care and concern. Really appreciate it. I love my friends. =]

Time really fly. It feels like it was just yesterday that I went into NTU. I was childish and bitchy back then. Haha... Okie bitchy is a very bad word to describe a guy and perhaps its not even a word for a guy. But I think if you read my year 1 blog entries you will know that my blog is a place full of bitchings about my life. Haha... Candy said she revisited my year 1 entries and she thinks that I used to be a funnier person back then because my blog entries were funny. Haha... I also realized that I have changed. I am no longer as humourous as I used to be. I don't know what caused the change in me but I know in the past few years in NTU, I have changed tremendously both physically and mentally. Just look at the differences in me from these photos... before and after




Haha... Physically, I think I have removed my specs and look better without specs. Haha... Although still not anywhere near the lines of a handsome chap, I look "ten thousand times better than when I was in year 1" (Candy, 2009). Haha... Mentally, I would say I am still childish but definitely more matured than when I was in year 1. I think I also learn to speak better english and to present and carry myself better (even though sometimes I still hunch back). Yeah... Going to town soon. Wee~ Recess week has started!

Yesterday was my official exercise day. As planned, I went to gym in the morning and swimming in the afternoon. Met Eiffel for dinner afterwards. Haha... We went drinking after dinner. I think I really can't drink! haha... After drinking about a lot from a jug of vodka cranberry, I was abit CMI liaoz and felt really high. Haha... But it was the strongest vodka cranberry I drank in my life. I think it must have been the free double shot. Yeah... Thats about all for yesterday. =] Once again, I am stuck with FYP. I don't know what our results imply. Sianz.

ALIN - 回家

Today went to take BTT. Haha... Passed. Booked FTT. Went backs to school to meet Prof. Chong for FYP. Haha... Cools. That's about all for today. And all these took the whole day. So ya. Haha... I hvn't been exercising these days. Tml shall be an exercise day for me. I will wake up early in the morning to go gym. Then I will go swimming in the afternoon. I hope the tml's sun is as sorching as today. =]

I didn't sleep well last night and early in the monring my mum was making a big fuss out of the internet bill. I was like whats the problem! The internet subscription is always under my name since I was in sec sch... but my mum's name is inside also because at that time I was less than 18 and ya... it cannot be solely under my name. So the account remained as my name c/o my mum's name and nobody in the family bothered to like take out the c/o when I was of eligible age to own the account. This morning my mum asked everyone in the house why is her name appearing on the internet bill! It has been like this for the past decade! So I was awoken from my not so good sleep to verfiy this "phenomenon". Grumbles. I am very tired now. I have to go teach tuition laters. I have to study BTT! Haha...

I only started touching the BTT book ytd. Although I promised Candy that since I have so much time, I will ace the BTT and get full marks because I will be so free that I study the book inside out. Haha... But oh wells, it seems like I am going to break the promise due to my procastinating nature to study things at the nick of time. I seriously think I am going to fail it. Haha... I know nuts about driving and I have totally zero interest for driving because I have been chauffered for the whole of my life! Haha... I wish I will be able to enjoy being chauffered for the rest of my life too. But wells, driving is still an essential skill. So... Gotta learn it! I know some of the BTT questions are like lame because they ask things like when you see a pedestrain what should you do (a) accelerate (b) slow down (c) stop. Haha... the answer is pretty obvious. But there are some that requires memory work. Sainz. Haha... Will I pass the BTT tml or will I not? Stay tuned... Haha... *tries to imitate incredible tales*

Talking about incredible tales, ytd I went to do fyp with lp and yh in holland v and we had lunch in coffee club. Then we noticed that the toilet is like outside of the restuarant on level 2 and the only way you can get to the toilet is to come up from the staircase next to the table where we were sitting. But we noticed there were people who bypass the staircase and somehow get to the toilet. We thought that maybe there is another way to get to the toilet from outside. But, when we walked outside we saw that there wasn't anywhere that a person can get to the toilet without passing us. So... Hmmz... I hummed the theme song of X-files... Hahaha... Then me and yh tried to imitate incredible tales dialogue "Was he a human or was it something else? Find out after the break." Yh added that should add a accent to it because the host is Utt. Haha... Then I said mine is the chinese version hosted by guo liang. Haha... Jokes...

Okie. Recently I am quite sian-si-fied because I keep losing things. Haiz... Sucks... Well should not talk about it. I have changed my display pic on msn and facebook. And the pic garned lots of different comments. Haha... Some said "What a ugly pic!" Some said "Its kinda attractive." Some said "It looks funny." Some said " You are cute in this pic." Haha.... You be the judge. I will post it here... Haha... I am narcisstic. This photo is taken at the busstop outside Safra when I went swimming on Sunday. One of the only times I will wear singlet. Haha...

There are many things I hate in life. But currently this is the part I hate most... ... ... ... F... Y...P!!! Don't ask me why because I don't know why. I just hate it. Results of all those data crunching always proves to be futile. Nothing much seems to be significant. I believe some other groups faces the same scenario where the results are never going to be significant. Regression models are weak with small R square values and adjusted R square are negative! OMG... Nvm... Perhaps multiple regression models don't work. Trys interactive regression models. Once again, interactive regression models serves no purpose as it gives similar and close to no results. All in all the regressions the Prof. instructed us to do is crap.

Imagine a journal article that brags of the suspicions of certain variables affecting something else citing lots of journals to prove that these suspicions are not groundless. But at the results section they turn around and say wells, our results just tells us that our suspicions is crap. Nothing of these sorts affects this something else. If you are the reader of such an article, how would you feel? I would think that what crap article is this? Waste my time! So if FYP turns out to be like that (which seems to be that now), I wouldn't want to stay optimistic and say that I can get a good grade for it, I am even worried that even a B+ is like mission impossible. I know that its entirely fine to suspect something and then find out that your suspicions is uncalled for. But 1 in 100 journal articles do that. Most jouranl articles prove what they set out to prove.

I don't know... I am lost and the Prof. will never ever give us a clue on how to turn everything around. Seriously, if I have to depend on myself and get nothing out of consultation, why would I need a Prof. to lead a FYP? All he says is you all need to find out why this is this and that is that. Ya? What are the key concepts? We are not economics students. I know nothing about the Mundell Flemming Model and I am not a guru for the Keynesian Model either. My econs sucks to the core. But my FYP is related very much to economics. I am totally sian-si-fied by FYP. In the afternoon, I felt very tired and drained out when I saw the results of the regressions of long term pass through with the economic variables. I tried very hard to figure out what's wrong with our data and why the results are like that. But to no avail, there wasn't anything I could do. Hence, I set out to try and sort out the data and present it in the nicest format ever (with the help of my team mates), so that the Porf. will be satiated tml and give us a hint and a headstart to our final write up. Its one of those frustrations that I felt when I was doing research methods project but this time it is magnified. At least for research methods, I could still figure out a structure. This time, I can't. Totally~ Hate this part... FYP!


I Hate This Part - Pussycat Dolls

Today, I travelled all the way to school to do the correlation matrix. Gosh... I finished it in the shortest possible time. Haha... I completed it in 5 minutes. In the end, I realized my trip to the school was a furtile trip. I actually forgot to include one variable when constructing the correlation matrix. Sianz. I am going to school early in the morning on Monday to get it done then.

I went for my second lunch after leaving school, I had my first at home before going to school. Haha... I wasn't exactly hungry but I just want to eat and keep myself occupied. Haha... Anyways, I am so skinny. I won't get fat by overeating. So just eat. Haha... Headed for town after that because I am meeting Eiffel for dinner in town. I saw an interesting book in Kino while I was waiting for Eiffel to come. Its a book that has pictures and wordings like those story books for kids. But this kiddy book has alot of meaning in it. It talks about how a cat gave another cat a box full of nothing as a gift. The story ended with it was a gift of nothing, just the two us admiring everything. I mean... Ya... I find that very meaningful. Sometimes you just need someone to be there for you. I would be very pleased if someone gets me that book. I forgot the title already. But I really like the book to bits. Haha...

I was watching the 9pm engineer show on channel 8 and I thought they accidentally portrayed the Ladder Theory. Haha... Male engineer 1 likes Female engineer. But Female engineer puts Male engineer 1 on the friends ladder. So when Male engineer 1 confessed to Female engineer, Female engineer felt vexed. But she was sure Male engineer 1 can only be friends with her. So she told Male engineer 1, "I have always treated you as a friend." Haha... At the same time, Male engineer 2 and Female engineer have mutual liking. And Female engineer eventually got together with Male engineer 2 according to the trailer. Male engineer 1 was sad, but he hopes that he can still be friends with Female engineer. Deep down Male engineer 1 hopes that by staying in contact with Female engineer he can still stand a chance, but then again he clearly knows that the chances of having a chance with Female engineer is close to zero. Haha... Its cliche but don't you think sometimes people fall into this cliche drama scenario? Haha... How silly of Male engineer 1 to entertain thoughts of being together with Female engineer when he knows clearly that they can only stay as close as friends. Haha... How silly. Haha...

These days haven't been very happy days for me due to unforeseen circumstances. Haha... I shall never dwell on emo stuff on my blog. My blog is a place for me to share ideas, love and happiness with everyone. Haha... So ya. No more emo-ness. Besides, I am so old le. Shouldn't let emo-ness get the better of me. There are many things waiting for me to be done. I should learn to control my emotions better.

Okie. So today, I went to teach tuition and the 11year old told me about his aspirations in life. I am very impressed by what he said. This is the conversation between us.

Kid: I want to have a successful career!

Me: Wow! That's good. What's your ambition.

Kid: I want to be a lawyer. Then I will earn alot of money and I will buy a big bungalow for my wife, my mum and my dad to stay in. I want to buy a sports car.

Me: Okie. Then you must study hard. Its not easy to be a lawyer. You need to be pro in your english you know? Cannot tikam for your mcq.

Kid: Yeah. I am trying hard to study hard. I got 5/10 for my gammar cloze. I think its an marked improvement!

Me: 5/10 is called just pass! Who told you it's a marked improvement?

Kid: That depends on how you define marked improvement. Previously, I got 2/10. Now its 5. So I feel quite proud of myself for the 3 mark improvement. Anyways, why did you choose to be a tuition teacher? Its seems like a lousy career.

Me: Teaching tuition is not my career. I am teaching tuition because I like to teach kids when I am free and I have no lessons.

Kid: Oh don't bluff! You just want money so that you can bring girls out on a date.

Me: Haha... NOO! Don't anyhow say.

Kid: I think you should be a reporter.

Me: Why do you think I should be a reporter?

Kid: Because you dress well and you look like someone who is fit to appear on TV.

Me: Haha... Okie please continue with your work.

Yeah. That was tuition. After tuition, I went Kimage to cut hair again and the same cute shampoo girl shampoo my hair again. Haha... We suddenly engaged in a conversation when she said that she recognised me and that she remembers that the last time she shampoo-ed my hair was 13 Jan. Woah... I am surprised that she even remember the date. Anyways, the bottomline is she is cute. I realized in hair salons, there are always cute shampoo gers and stylists who can put on nice make up and dress well. Haha...

So ya. That's all for today. Tml I am going backs to school to use SPSS to do up a correlation matrix for FYP. I don't know why Excel is so lousy that they can only do half the job of generating a correlation martix but end up not telling you which correlation coefficients are significant. The developers of the Excel's Data Analysis Add-in, please consider improving your pearson product moment correlation function! Haha...

The narcissitic bug in me took over again. Haha... Today I tried to funny by wearing a polo tee with a Burberry brit checks shawl look alike paired with a chinese high look alike shorts. Haha... The overall look seems alright to me but I think most people will think that a guy dressed like that is like over the top. Haha... Whatever, won't people get bored of always wearing what everyone else wears everyday? T-shirts + jeans, oversized polo tees and excessively long berms and etc. etc. I am someone who likes to be different. Haha... =]

Yays... Portfolio management quiz 1 is over. Woohoo~ Its so bloody easy. I couldn't believe this is a BF3XX course. It should be relabelled as a BF2XX course. Haha... Although some had difficulties using calculus to derive minimum variance portfolio weights, I managed to solve it. Yays. Lucky I didn't spend alot of time to study hard for it. Haha.. Nevertheless, there were 2 mcqs which I was unsure of. Heck... Haha...

Okie enough for the quiz. Today is FYP day. Haha... Wish us luck. If you are passing by holland v drop by and give us your blessings. Haha... I just learnt that the word limit for FYP write up is 7000 words. I seriously think the research we are doing cannot be contained in just 7000 words. For one, research write ups have to be precise and technical. Two, we have 2 parts, the first part has a few variables and the second part has 14 variables. Oh wells... So... I don't know how. Another issue is that the writing style of a FYP report has to be very different from the normal project write ups we submit. You will understand if you read enough journal articles when you were doing research methods project. Haha... Some of my friends have submitted their first draft and their tutors reprimanded them that its not even a draft. Candy told me that the tutor said their first draft is a negative draft. Like its not even the a draft like that. Omg. I hope our first draft will not suffer the fate of being called a negative draft.

Talking about journal articles, yesterday Prof. Lui told us about an interesting article. The article is titled Boys will be Boys. You can google it and find the article. The article researched on how gender and marriage plays a part in the performance of individual investors in the stock market. I thought it was very interesting. The results of the research showed that the best performers were single female and the worst performers were single male. On the other hand, marriage causes the performance of males to improve while causing the performance of females to deteriorate. The reasons for these results are linked to behavioural finance. Those interested in this realm of study might find this article pretty interesting. Ya... So all single females, its time you invest! Since you are best performers, you are bound to be able to earn a huge return from investment. Haha...

I was sick of my simple whitish blog skin. I just needed a change. Hence, I changed it to a difficult to navigate, striking colours blog skin. Haha... I know it looks very feminine. But heck lahz. I want a big change to my blog. Haha... I like the big wordings for the titles of each section like info, articulate etc. I can foresee that fewer people will tag me now cos its just so mafan to like click on something to tag. Please do TAG ME okie??? My blog is so dead. To tag me please click on links in the blue box (on your left), and you will see the articulate section which is my tag board. Haha...

Tml is portfolio management quiz 1. I never really studied for it. Hope I won't do too badly for it. Next up, BTT and FYP write up. Haha... Wish me luck in everything ya? Haha...

Yays... Today I studied two chapters of portfolio management. Haha... I am so darn free but I am just so nua. Time to spring back into action. 1 more chapter for tonight and 1 more chapter tml and I will be done with my revision of the quiz. Haha...

My blog is so boring these days... All words... Haha... I never take much photos when I go out too. Haha... So to update those friends who have been too busy to meet up with me, or those friends who have gone overseas and never had a chance to see me for years, I am going to post one of my latest narcisstic shots. Haha... Don't vomit... I know my face is getting older and older each time you all see me. Haha... Hopefully when you all are back in Singapore, you all can recognise the all new tomatoez. Haha... My face is still as red as ever. =]

Its already thursday! OMG! I have a quiz on Monday. Sianz... I havn't started studying but am in no mood to do anything. I suspect I am having some kind of depression. Haha... Okie enough of crap. I am going to start studying full force tomorrow and saturday. =]

I realized that I am not a very nice person because some people don't like me. First, my blog had something bad being tagged by anonymous. Second, when my laptop broke down and recovered shortly after that, somebody's response was "I hope it happens to you again". This person really pissed my pants off. This somebody tells everybody that I am very close to him. In a way, yes I am close to him because whenever he is down he talks to me. I ALWAYS lend a listening ear to him. But this is what I get??!! I mean okie, my laptop failure is not exactly a big deal but its the gesture of gloating at me? WTH! Maybe I am over-reacting and that is what makes me not a very nice person. But then, I just feel that I don't need "friends" who gloat at my misfortunes or rather 幸灾乐祸. I know that some of you might be thinking that maybe he is just joking. I tell you, he is NOT. For the full story please ask me. I too lazy to like type it here. Then again maybe I am petty lor. Thats why I got pissed off. Oh wells... I don't know what else to say.

Enough of emo-ish posts. Haha... Recently, I am so wanting a vest. Those black ones which was IN a while ago? I know wearing a vest is like a style that has been around for very long and it might be outdated anytime soon. But I just feel like having one. I want to add layers to my style. I am bored of my warped preppy style (shirt and shorts... its warped because the shirt is preppy but the shorts is not... haha... my own definition...) which many people thinks is weird. Haha... I don't think its weird, its just style ahead of most guys who are still stuck with t-shirts and jeans. Recently, I have tried to do layering when I go out. People start asking me aren't you hot? Haha.. I am not hot under those layers. Its cool. Haha... Simple layers add volume to your build and make people think that you look better than you actually are. Yeah... So yeah... I so want a vest which can give me more flexibility when layering. Haha... I know its like not very IN anymore but when I wear it it will be IN again. Haha... Oppz... BHB again. Just kidding ya. I just want to wear what I think looks best for me. =] I am eyeing a vest from ESPRIT. Haha... Hmmz... Should I get it? KIV first... I just learnt from fashion nation that the new mall in Tampines will be having H&M, Zara, Topman and Uniqlo stores. Cools. There is no longer a need to travel to town for Zara and Topman. I hope the new mall in Tampines opens soon!

I suddenly have alot of things to do. I am kinda shagged and am falling sick soon. Have been going out more often than any of those previous sems when I was basically packed with lessons on all 4/5 days of a week.

Went temple yesterday to pray Tai Shui. The Ox fan Tai Shui this year and all Ox must go and pray. There were alot of people! And I never understand why people like to carry incense next to their eyes and get their eyes irritated when they can just hold it high up and not let the smoke of the incense get into their eyes. The temple has lots of "gadgets" this year. Haha... They have like Ox in different elements. So you are suppose to see which element you belong to according to your birth year and then touch the Ox of the element you belong to. Haha... My element is Earth. There were also extra large abacus and you are suppose to touch it to signify that you will be counting money all year long. Lots of other "gadgets" were there. Haha... I thought it was very interesting.

Met Eiffel for dinner at PS. Haha... We were perpetually hungry. We ate Mos Burger and we weren't satisfied. We went to eat Shilin XXL Chicken Cutlet. Hmmz... Still hungry. We walked to somewhere near Paradis Centre for Rocher Beancurd. Haha... Finally, we were full. Haha...

Haiz... I am having a terrible headache. Can't get started on anything. I have to study for my Portfolio quiz and do fyp. Oh mans... and I am still going out to give tuition later. Feel like sleeping mans. Yawnz...

When your laptop don't work, bash it up...

Yes... the title of this post says it all. It works big time. Haha... This afternoon, I tried to on my laptop at 1 plus. And it just won't get into windows. It just shows a black screen after you see the BIOS screen. I on and off. Disconnect the DVD drive, dismantle everything. On and off. On and off. On and off. OMG! How come its still the black screen after the BIOS screen. Darns. I am very pissed. I WANT TO ON MY LAPTOP! I got fed out. My patience is running out. BIOS setup, toggling operating systems settings in primitive dos settings and whatever method just wouldn't work. ITS THE BLACK SCREEN! OMG! Is my laptop dead?! NO! Its not going to die just like that. I began to slam the laptop. I punched the keyboard randomly. Its 3pm now. I almost lost the hope that my laptop will be working. I punched somemore. I slam somemore. At 325pm, I punched F8. The safe mode menu came out. I selected safe mode. A bunch of commands in MS-DOS came out of the screen. Machiam matrix. Except its black and white. Haha... The bunch of commands stopped moving. I was like WTF... It can't even launch the safe mode. My laptop must be in critical condition. 20 minutes passed... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... The laptop rebooted itself... ... ... Okie the BIOS screen again... After the BIOS screen... ... ... ... ... ... OMG! The login screen appeared. Keys in password. Okie windows loaded. The laptop is WORKING again. Haha...

The moral of the story is never give up on what you believe in. If you believe that the laptop won't die, it won't die. I did it! I guess it applies to other stuff! You may call it luck but well... I believe that its cos I never give up. Haha... Okie... Time for dinner. Pizza Hut! Woohoo~