I have been feeling super tired these days. No... Its not cos of work. Hahaha... I hvn't been sleeping well actually for some strange reasons which I myself cannot pinpoint what it is.

Today, I lunched with Beng Soon, the accountant for subsidiaries of SCS. We chatted and he told me like the career paths that I can take given my level and situation. Haha... He is super observant, super smart and can see through things so quickly. What he says of me is so true. So ya... I realised ya... actually what he suggested is like what I have in mind when I took double spec. But somehow along the way, I lost my vision for a while. The Macquarie Warrants seminar which I attended yesterday at SGX centre made me realise even more more things which affirmed my vision. The word is believe. I should believe in myself and stick to my vision. After all, nobody knows myself better than I do. Finally, I realised what Clara says is right - Its all fated. I ranted, I whined and I complained about my internship. But this internship did really make me realise a lot of things that I have either lost, forgotten or have never thought of. No doubt that it doesn't equip me with any skills or professional experience like how Jia Hui's internship is offering him, the people whom I interact with made me think, reflect and realise. Nevertheless, I do seriously envy or am even jealous of those who are having very good exposures in banks and I do hope they do not let themselves down by not utilising their opportunities well. However, I should know where I stand and what I am good at. Haha... Its all fated. =]

In the late afternoon, me and Linda were so bloody tired at work that we starting chatting instead of working. Hahaha... Jokes. But anyways... Talking to Linda expose me to a whole new world. Haha... She was telling me about the people she meet and her friends and I realised wow... hahaha... Its just different. Its just... Ya... And suddenly I realised what Ri hui told me is right. My best friend just know me so well. Haha... I shouldn't hanker for the unattainables. Haha... Enough said. The thing I realised is quit being stubborn, some things will just not be fated to be mine and some things are just not within my reach. Trying too hard just makes me feel so drained, tired and frustrated. What for? Life is about being happy isn't it?

So today was the day I realised... ... Who, where, and what am I. I shouldn't be stubborn. Goals and dreams are poles apart. Quoting Linda, "Dreams don't come true." Haha... Now I agree. I used to believe that "We must work towards fulfilling our dreams." But now... I realised... Ya... Hahaha... Nevertheless, it doesn't mean I will not be highly motivated. But this time it is to work towards attainable goals. =] I am feeling motivated. =]