What can I say? Sheer suay-ness or the school's system is at fault? I guess both. Haiz... The same problem I encountered with my double spec subjects surfaced again this semester. It happened last sem and this sem it happened again. "-_- What is NBS subject registration doing?

So people why do I need to go to school for subject registration? No not because I am kaisu. Its because of this problem - my second spec subject will forever appear as a GE and not NBS2. Those who take double spec will know that our double spec subjects must appear as NBS2 and not GE unless we are realy intending to take extra and treat that subject as GE.

Thus, I need to go the NBS subject registration place to bang tables and chairs and shout at them. This time I was more fierce than last semester because I had to rush back to office after the registration because a fixed asset meeting which was already fixed with Betty from Corporate IS last week and I had to attend it. So I flared up which I think I shouldn't have because the more fierce you are the more they refuse to help. Unfortunately, until now the problem is not resolved. Reason being I was pressed for time what. And all they said was "We will TRY, we PROBABLY GET BACK to you by NEXT WEEK!" I was irritated to hear those words in caps. Whats the meaning of try and probably get back? Means there is a probability that you won't get back? I want a definite answer on when the problem will be rectified. Why are they so unprofessional? The funniest thing is I was right infront of Loh Mei Ying with the problem and she said "Can you write an email to me regarding your problem?" Its like is she retarded or what? I am right in front of you I presented my case and I want immediate attention thats why I stormed into your office and she asked me to write her an email? Gosh... I couldn't believe my ears. I replied " I am already here and I want immediate attention I want a definite answer on when you will rectify the problem. I will give you my matric number, HP number and full name with details of the problem. And get back to me by 1230pm! Becuase I really got to rush back for work and if I am late because you don't reply you are responsible for answering to my boss." And all the Loh Mei Ying could say was "We will TRY." Omg. Try again. Does she even sure of her own job? Does she knows what she is doing? Her "we will try" is like in a nua tone with no assurance and affirmation that she will really try. "-_- No news until now. I should have controlled myself. This incident just demostrate how low my EQ level was. Probably those who know me well knows very well I will normally not flare up and know me as a soft spoken person who does no confrontation of such. But this time it was really bad until I lost myself and I lost my temper saying things in a very negative frame. Haiz... Problem unresolved until now. What makes matters worst is that BAF subjects had zero vacancies since 9.30am on my computer until now. Sobz. I am BAF-less next sem. I am more like an accounting student doing BAF second spec. Haha...

After the whole saga, I submitted an appeal form and hopefully they reply me asap. So thats the end of the subject registration saga. I am sianz, tired and pissed with the whole event. I hate NTU, I hate my own suay-ness and lack of control for my own emotions.

Met Candy, Yanfen and Wenqing for dinner after work at the jap marche. haha... I don't know the name of the restuarant though. Its shoku ... something something... Hahaa... Saw Guiying and Weiqiang before going to meet Candy. Haha... Thats all for today. Time to sleep. Life gets better.

Today was a Zara spree for me. I went to Orchard Zara with my mum and sis this afternoon. Wow! They have many stuff which MS Zara didn't have. And the prices are like dirt cheap. I bought a belt, a shirt and a polo tee. =] Nice nice, happy happy. But... Wallet empty at the end of the day. Haha...

Before meeting my mum and sis I went for a swim. Sunny sunny. I love it! =]

Dinner at Island cafe in Tangs. Cool. I didn't know there is a cafe that serves local food. Not bad. They have abalone and crayfish in hor fun. Haha... But actually the food is nothing fantastic. It taste abit too bland. =/ Since we were in Tangs I passed by Fred Perry corner and saw freaking nice bags. Coooolllll.... My mum forbid me to buy cos I am not gonna be using casual bags anymore after studies. Anyways, I also got no money to buy also. Plus at that price, I would rather buy Agnes B which has much more sophisticated designs. Hahaha... So ya... I saw Agnes B bags today also... Its freaking me! I like! Hahaha... But than again like my mum says... I wun be carrying such casual bags anymore so its like wasting money to buy lorz. Hahaha... So yeah... No buy no buy.

Alright. I think I sound like a girl in this entry. Go shopping lahz... Hanker for nice bags. Omg... Okie... I should learn to be more man. Haha.... But well actually guys carry bags also wad. So hankering over bags is normal to me but not to other guys cos guys do not express their desires like I do. Hahahahaa.... Okie... I think I am tired. Time to sleep. I am so gonna drag my feet to tuition tml. Yawnz. Hates giving tuition.

Its a long friday, but enjoyable. =] I just got home. Haha... I had a talk with Linda today and I realised wow... She knows alot! Even banking and finance stuff she knows. I think I know only like 1/100000 stuff of banking and finance.

Wells, anyways, after work I went to meet Guiying and Carrie (Guiying's primary sch classmate) for dinner at Hotpot Culture. Haha... Somehow, I felt that I was quite inferior to these two 21 year old girls. One opens a tuition agency and the other started a company doing import and export of healthcare products. Wow! And me? Hahaha... Er okie...

So I realised its time to do something for myself after talking to Linda and meeting these two girls. And actually Linda did say other things about life to me too. I felt that she really made alot of sense. So ya. I must work hard. Not in terms of studies but in terms of like getting something up in my life soon. =]

Went Zara sales with Guiying and saw Linda. Haha... So funny.

So after Zara sales I went to meet Jiming and his freinds for a drink at Icon Bar. I don't like that place cos its kind of sleazy. Next time no go. Cabbed down to Simpang Bedok for supper after that. =] Anyways, its really a small world. Today, I got reunited with my primary school classmate Wei Jun who is actually Jiming's friend. Haha... And he actually remembers me but I got zero impression of him. Haha... I think I have serious senile dermentia. He was telling me about primary school and I can't remember a single thing. The only thing I remembered is that I top the chinese calligraphy competition since primary 1 and I am in EM1. Hahaha... Then Wei Jun was like saying he remembers me cos I was a high flyer in primary school. Was I? Haha... I got into neighbourhood secondary school also wad. Haha... Wells wells... I guess in the past I was really a self-centred person who only bothered about myself and lived in my own world. Now that I meet people from the past it is even more apparent. I only remembered what i did what i wanted in the past but I can't remember any other people and their jokes, scandals, etc. etc. etc. So ya... I am glad I came out of the past and I am now a better person definitely. =] Its never too late. Life just gets better. And it will only if you want and put in effort to make it better. Do not lose the drive for life! Jiayou! =]

Okie... so it turns out that my mistake was like somewhat neligible. =] Today was hell of a busy day. I did alot of things and everyone's looking for me to do stuff for them. Haha... I never knew I held such an important position in the office. Haha... =] Enough of boasting about my work. Haha... Pay is coming! Wee~ Zara sales is here. But I don't have money and have no time to go. Sobz. By the time I hit the stores, all sizes would have been wiped out. Oh wells... Save money. =]

Today I was showered with a huge responsibility by the financial controller Helen Chan. Omg! I was tasked to do the billing for the billion dollar SOE project. If you people have read the papers early this year you will know how big the SOE project is. It involves various companies and one of the companies which is involved is my internship company Singapore Computer Systems.

Suddenly I was rid of the misery of doing mundane jobs like filing and archieving. I was given almost full access to the PeopleSoft system. Noobie me who has never touched PeopleSoft in my entire life before suddenly got to digest how to navigate it. My brain almost burst. Haha... Nevertheless, I am happy that the FC actually trust me so much. Linda was like wah... You are so important! The FC have to come out of her office to invite you do an important task. Serene was like you have been promoted. Haha... Okie... I thought I was in heaven and I was so pro and competent.

At the end of the day. OMG... I committed a mistake. Sianz half. I did 5 contract billings wrongly. OMG 5! I felt so shi bai. So sads. It was a mistake that could have been avoided. And having just learnt how to use Peoplesoft is not an excuse for my mistake. It was really due to my own neligence. So sads. Now Lai Soon, Eve and many other people has to help me clear up the mess I created.

On a positive note, the SOE project involves like a few hundreds and thousands of contracts so... ya... 5 seems like a fraction of the total. But to me a mistake is a mistake. It proves my lack of competence. I am so disappointed with myself. Sobz. Nevertheless, I shall learn and not commit anymore mistakes in the future. I must live up the the status Cecilia gave me "He is fast and accurate!" Haha... Alright. Hopefully it wasn't too huge a mess. Prays hard.

Today after lunch I was bored. So I played with my coins... Wow! SEE!! Magiccc! I made the coins stand up. Even 10 cents. Quick try to make your 10 cents stand like mine. Haha...

I accompanied Linda to clear the discrepancies in the stock take in the afternoon. Haha... It was quite tiring already to like see a few items. I can't imagine how they did the full count on last thursday. Luckily I was involved in fixed assets so I was exempted. Phew. Haha... I was rewarded with $2000 after helping Linda with the stock take. See!

Haha... Okie... I know its not funny. Its actually cuttelfish made to look like a currency. So funny. So cute. Basically tat was how my Monday was like. Pretty interesting right? Whoever says tat Mondays have to be blue? Haha...

On a really serious note. I must announce that Candy's name is Ho Cheuk Ying. Haha... If not she will call my Zhnayi. Haha... So ya... Spelt her name wrongly in the last entry. So once again lets put our hands together to welcome Ho Cheuk Ying back to Singapore. WOOOOOOOO~ Cheers and claps. Haha...

Yesterday met Joanne, Yiling and two of Yiling's fren - Evelyn and Jimmy for KTV at TopOne in Bugis. Haha... Sing until sore throat. From 11am to 6pm. We found a funny sign on the doors of the ktv rooms. Haha... I thought it was very funny. The glass door is fatigue. Haha... Jokes. I think they meant fragile.

Okie so thats all for yesterday. Haha... Today I am supposed to go for tuition but I was pissed because I couldn't contact the parents nor anyone else related to this tuition job. So I didn't go in the end lest I will stand outside the house and press the door bell knock the door for ten thousand times and nobody answer me. Suddenly at 10 the mum called me and asked :Are you coming?" Then I was like "NO I am not coming already". Then she wanted to tick me off by saying "Next time call me in advance to inform that you wun be coming." I was like WTF! Ch** B**! It almost came out of my mouth. Then I told her "Excuse me I couldn't contact you, your husband and your house at all. Your number is not in use." Then she finally remembered that she changed her number and never told me a single thing about it. Seriously. Lame shit. Firstly the son is dumb because he uses his eraser as a dice to choose his answers for MCQs for like exams since primary 3 until now. Secondly the mum, the dad is alwaes not contactable. Thirdly the mum and dad doesn't wanna update me on anything regarding their contacts and their son's exam dates and results. Fourthly, the son forgets everything that I teach like as though he was suffering from serious senile dermentia. Whats next? I had enough of all these lame shit. No wonder they pay me higher than market rate and all tuition teachers cannot last for more than half a year with this family.

Alright enough of whinning and complaining like a bitch on a cool sunday morning. Haha...on a positive note. Candy is coming backs to Singapore today!!! Woohoo~ Applause, cheer and etc. for the arrival of Candy Ho Chuek Ying! Haha... (Did I spell your name correctly?) Happy anot Candy? I remember when you come back lorz. Hahaha... I am eagerly waiting for my present!!

Yeah!! Its finally friday! Wee~ Weekends! Today was a fun day in office again. Linda and Suzie were damn funny today. Suzie keep saying that Linda is not pretty and Linda wanted to throw scissors at her. Jokes man. Whole day full of jokes. Its really fun working in SCS. Just that the internship pay is miserable. But nevermind. Linda is extending my stay for two more weeks as a part timer. 8 bucks per hour. =] Its like 600 plus for two weeks. Compare to internship one month 700. Haha... Its like heaven and earth the pay. Haha...

I forgot to charge my hp and it died once i reached my office. A day without the most important device in my life. My hp double up as a calendar, watch, organiser, communication device, entertainment and many many more functions. I almost died when it powered off for the whole day.

Today was quite a fun day not cos of the things i did but cos of all the conversation in the office. Haha... Damn funny. =] Tml is thurs and the day after tml is fri! Woohoo~~~ Haha... one more week down! =]

Yesterday after work met for Yiling's birthday celebration at Hollan V Essential Brew. Haha... It was fun lahz.

Today was a boring day until in the afternoon when I went to sales and marketing department to do fixed asset tagging. Woo~~~ I saw a couple of really chio gers! And they looked young lahz. Not lao chio okie. Haha... Linda is finally backs in office today. Haha... She is as usual funny like hell. =]

Anyways, talking about gers. Ya! I am interested in gers. Please stop saying I gay lahz. Really walau force me to use the word fuck lorz. Seriously fuck those who tink I am gay. I am not! So wad if I don't watch soccer? I don't think it makes me a lesser guy and that the lack of interest in soccer means I am not striaght and I like guys. Some people are really "-_- It makes me wonder... Like seriously... "-_- Speechless... Don't know what to say.

I still have something esle to say. But I guess I shouldn't say it here. Haha... Don't worry I am not emo at all. Haha... =]

Father's day dinner at Peach Garden @ 33, Executive's Club. This is the photo I took before the food were served. Haha...

Determined Realist

A few days ago, I did a personality test. I am as above a determined realist. I think its kind of accurate. Here's the description of a determined realist (those in orange is what i tink is so true about me):

Determined Realists like to bear responsibility and welcome challenges. They are stable, reliable persons. External contacts are very important to them; they mix well and are very active. They are excellent organisers and are very happy when things are done correctly and punctually; they can quickly react impatiently if others are not as conscientious, orderly and dutiful as they are. They prefer structured work which produces visible results quickly to abstract, long-drawn-out processes. Determined Realists have no problem with routine as long as it serves efficiency. However, they very much dislike unexpected and unpredictable occurrences which mess up their careful plans. Once they have committed themselves to a cause they do this with dedication and are willing to make considerable sacrifices for it.

Determined Realists do not avoid conflicts and criticism but face up to them and look for solutions. As they have a keen eye for the errors and shortcomings of others and are often quick at expressing criticism, they sometimes rub people up the wrong way especially when they lose their temper and jump to conclusions. Due to their marked sense of justice they are quickly willing to correct themselves and never take offence if someone speaks to them frankly. You do not have to seek hidden motives with them; you always know where you are. Determined Realists are often found in executive positions as they combine commitment, competence and the ability to assert themselves. In their spare time, they often also accept responsibility in clubs and other institutions.

Traditions rate highly with Determined Realists. They attend every family event and never forget a birthday or wedding anniversary. Family and friends are very important to them. With their open, communicative manner, they find it easy to get to know people and have a large circle of friends and acquaintances. They are never superficial, but reliable and loyal friends who are always there when they are needed. Determined Realists take their relationships very seriously - they dream of finding a partner for life. In a love relationship, they seek above all stability and loyalty and here, too, they are willing to invest a lot in a harmonious togetherness. Determined Realists master crises or difficult phases with composure; they would never think of breaking a promise given. As a partner, one can always rely on their support

Today, I woke up to a gloomy sky. Sianz... Why so dark one? "-_- No sun so no swim. I went gym instead. =]

I realised I have lost myself the past few months. A few months back, I told myself to stop being the old me and enjoy being myself and do whatever I enjoy living life to the fullest. I remembered I was happy with life back then. But somehow, these past few months I lost it entirely, I reverted to the old me - pessisimistic, inferior, cynical, skeptical and etc. I felt upset, emo over many things. Yesterday night I woke up from this long dream after chatting with Guiying online. I woke up. I realized I should face life positively and I should live for myself and not to compare with others. I realized I was upset because I expected too much and neglected what I already have. I hankered for things that was out of my reach.

The only difference is that there is no difference to begin with.

The only impossible is what you think is impossible.

The only negatives are what you think are negatives.

Understood, never practice what I preached.

I realised its time to wake up.

The first half of today was quite sianz. Records management again. Haha... Stamp documents. Yawnz... The second half of the day was fixed asset count and tagging for corporate information systems. The department have 200 plus fixed assets. Its quite difficult to track which fixed asset is which fixed asset and tag. Luckily the corp IS executive assistant helped us tag the assets already and we just went to sight and count it. Got to know Lai Soon from corp IS. He is one of the higher position corp IS personnel but I didn't know. So when I went to do asset tagging alone as Evelyn went somewhere else, he talked to me. Haha... He is damn funny. We talked about SMU vs NTU. Damn funny, but the content is not appropriate to be disclosed here. Haha... Its just damn true and damn funny.

Today was a boring day at work. Linda is not in cos she went on holiday. Evelyn on leave. Omg... I am left alone. Okie not entirely alone. Nobody to give me work. Haha... Cecilia gave me some work and talked to me after lunch time. Yeah her advices are so right. I need to work hard if I am really keen in working in a bank. =]

Nevertheless, many things are currently on my mind and I am vexed, unhappy and moody. I just don't feel good. So after work, I came back home got changed and went to the gym to workout. I must be mad to do 5 sets of 10 with 40kg. My arms, shoulders and chests feels quite tight and strained. Hope I never overtrain. I was just not feeling good and I just continue doing until failure. "-_- I supposed that is how people train and get big right. I hope my moody-ness help me train harder and well in the end i gain someting out of my moody-ness. Haha... But than again 40kg is like peanuts to like majority of guys. But ya I am still rather weak lahz. Give chance. Don't say until like I train lidat like girl. Thats not encouraging lorz. Haha...

Abner gonna stop being friends me cos he found his ger. So lame. He said... I probably wun to toking to you anymore, I will talk to Miss G more. Then I said... So You will probably not go out with me anymore? Abner said YA! Haha... OMG! Thats like if I got gf I got no brothers and no frens. "-_- But aiya... I understand how much committment a guy has to put into a relationship that he will have little time for frens. So ya... Haha... Lame shit. Now I got one lesser friend to go out with. Feels so lonely. I need a gf. Who wanna be a gf of a handsome 23 years old man. He has glowing red tomato like face hanging on a bamboo pole like body. No car but got two kars. No money but got credit card with aggregate credit limit $7,500, but no money to pay kind. No license cannot drive. Come come. Register now!!! Don't let your chance slip away. Hahaha... Okie... Gone mad. Too tired from the rotting in office. Time to sleep. ZZzzzz...

Gloomy. Bad. Sky dark dark. No sun. Don't know when will it rain. So never go swim.

Bored. Don't feel like going home. Nobody free. Go out alone. Want to buy something. Got no size. Damn. Went home empty handed.

Bored at home. Watch 星光3. Finished. Bored still. Feeling sad. Feeling emo. Not again. Sad... Losing it. Losing alot of friends... they just disappeared from my life without any notice. They are gone forever. So sad. so sad. so very sad.

So bored. Yawnz a rainy saturday. Want to go swimming also cannot. "-_-

Went to Prada sale in the morning with sis. Haha... The sale is really a true blue sale. 45% off. Almost half the price gone. And the discount is on some of the summer/spring 08 collection. So cool. But no guys one lahz. Yawnz... "-_- After that went to the rabbit brand shark's fins shop for lunch. haha... Yawnz...

Tried to ask abner out but he says he doesn't feel like coming out. Lame... Guiying is busy teaching tuition. Haha... So I came home. Played viwawa. Abit sianz of it liaoz. Haha... So now... I am rotting hence blogging. Haha... So don't feel like staying at home to rot on a saturday. Cos mon to fri work... sat should go out and enjoy. But oh wells. Hahaha... Should just sleep my day away. ZZzzzz...

Today was an enjoyable day at work as usual. =] After work met guiying for dinner and den we went kbox. Haha... Today no photo. So ya. My enjoyable firday. Recently have been going out very frequently and spending alot of money on just food. Even if I don't go out, I will eat alot during lunch break and buy bread to eat during the times after lunch break when I get hungry halfway when I am working. =]

Results are out. Its chui-ed. Really chui-ed. Don't tell me some crap such as "I am sure its not that bad." Cos its bad. Really bad as there is a C+. So... Now are you sure its not that bad? Haha... But stop guessing that its tax. I got A for tax. Too bads people. So sorry to disappoint those who think that I cannot do well for tax. I CAN! And I proved my point. Tax is NOT a "OMG ITS A DAMN DIFFICULT SUBJECT!!" Its so easy. Lalala... Okie hao lian. And ya... let me hao lian for my wealth planning. I also got A for that. WEE~ Let me plan your wealth next time. hahaha...

Okie enuff about results lahz. Next sem work harder. As usual my target for next sem as like evry other sem after I get my results is to get gpa 5 for the following sem. Hahaha... Yes... I can do it. Hahaha...

My PA tutor came today to visit. Haha... My supervisor gave quite good review of me. =] Haha... As usual Linda was funny lahz. And ya... she said to call her in december, she welcome me to go backs to SCS to work for her and she gurantee a pay higher than $7 per hour. Haha... Cool.... Stupid reservist. If not december hols I can go back there and earn quite alot. Haha... Next week will be Linda-less in office. So lesser jokes. Cos she is going on a holiday to korea. Hahaha... But she is damn nice. She promise to bring me to tok lung resturant for buffet on my last day cos I treat her bread. Haha... =] I am lucky to have a good supervisor. =] =] =] =] =] =] =] =] count... its eight smiles... Huat ah!!! Hahaha...

My blog is dead... haha... Few people tag or comment. Haha... Okie... I think cos my blog entries are all "-_- boring, emo, sad and cynical. So I need to make it happy ba. But I can't lahz... Its my emo, stress, sadness relieve channel. Today, I am actually not happy lahz. Haiz... Cos why wasn't I invited? Full stop. Not gonna say more. So sad. I guess I am unwanted. Soooooo unwanted. Haiz haiz haiz. Okie... After three sighs. I am alright. Smilez. =] I shouldn't be sad, cos they should have good reasons ba and maybe its for my own good. Haha... Okie. Dun say le.

Today was a tiring day at work. I was tasked to carry three full height shelves worth of ring files from one room to another room. The room was dusty, and filled with a couple of dead cockroach bodies. Okie so ya. Haha... But its good to sweat it out lahz. I very long never exercise and sweat liaoz. Haha... Ya so I actually felt energetic after carrying all those files. BUT, my face grew new pimples. I tink my sensitive skin is stupid. Abit of dust only mahz... Then got new pimpels come out. Okie... I shall really stop being vain.

After work I met Jun Yuan for dinner and went to shop around. Haha... Din buy any stuff, all not nice one. Yawnz. Nice one dun have my size. Haha... Alright thats all for today. Tml my PA tutor is coming to visit me at work. Wonder what he will do. Hahaha... Okie time to sleep early. But before that viwawa... Haha... I am addicted...

Recently there are a couple of nice duets. Haha... Here are two duets that i think are nice. What do you all think?

傳說 - 林宥嘉 , 劉力揚


花很迷惘 - 吳忠明 , 葉瑋庭