Bloggie bloggie.... Hahaha... I am an compulsive blogger. I keep on blogging and blogging. Hahahaha... Today I went for dim sum buffet at tung luk in east coast with jiahui, desmond and hui hoon. Haha... The food is good... =] Periodic laughters from lame jokes.

Came home and felt a sudden urge to study tax. Current completion stage: capital allowances. So I am left with the last part - One tier system and determining tax liability before I finish my revision for tax quiz. Yipee... However, as I was rejoicing with my progress with tax revision I saw my AA202 customised textbook collecting dust calling out to me... don't forget me... your quiz is 10 march!!! STUDY STUDY!!! Hhaha.... Okie.... Study overdose... Gone mad.

Tml I am meeting for board meeting discussion. Haha... I read through the case and I attempted the questions... Walau whats the case about???? Question marks all over my head. But I have some answers. Hahaha... =] Not so bad...

Alright.... I am feeling so energised... when I never take any naps in the afternoon. The strategy for me to stay awake is to sleep less... Weird body.... But oh welll as they say smart people sleep less... Haha... Who says I am simple??

I am blogging everyday. Haha... No... Not because I am too free, its because I am slacking. I haven't been studying for my quizzes diligently. Oh well... Haiz... But one thing is my cashback is IN!!! Woohoo~ Money money come... Hahhahaa... Gone mad.

I am not in the best of moods because something happened again. Call me unlucky. Recently I always meet fuckers, bitches and bastards. What I am going to say now is a story about a fucker. And the story is not weaved because of my negativitiy and cynical brain. So here goes... We should name the fucker A to avoid making my entry look damn vuglar.

So A told me... He thinks that X and C are not simple personnels like me. Then I was like er okie... So? A says he feels that X and C are scheming personnels who schemes on others and he doesn't know when he is their target. He adds on that being a scheming person himself who schemes on others also, failing to see through X and C as scheming against what, means they are of a higher level than him.

I was like... er... So? then he said so... he doesn't want them to scheme on him. Then I replied if you scheme on people, you have no rights to feel angry, upset, annoyed or whatsoever when other people scheme on you. Full stop. And I stopped talking about it. Then I was thinking, if you don't enjoy being schemed don't scheme on others in the first place. Its because you scheme on others thats why you are always thinking that others are scheming like you do as well when they may actually be not scheming to start off with.

I don't bear any thoughts of people scheming against me although sometimes I suspect but I will just dismiss the negative thought because I believe in the friendship with that person. But, now that A admits that he schemes on people. I can confirm that what happened to me and H was a result of A's schemes!!! Full stop. I shouldn't continue. I feel so... fucked up.

But ultimately, I don't belive that scheming is the only way you can get things done and achieve your goals. Thats all...

I guess all my emo and negative posts have driven most of my readers away. Haha...

Okie... Slacker at work again. I never study my tax again today. Much less AA202. Oh man... Thats bad... Credit Suisse test wasn't easy. Haiz... Chances of being selected for interview seems bleak. Everyone seemed to have done more than 40 questions... while me only did 39 questions out of 50. Oh well... Life... Haha...

Today, somebody said I got ulterior motive for doing something which I think is totally lame. I don't do things with any motives. Too bad. People who thinks this way must always have ulterior motives when doing something thats why when they see people doing something they think other people are like them. Oh well... Just a few words for you... FUCK YOU ASSHOLE!!! Thats all... Full stop...

I came home at 2 plus and slacked the whole day... Oh no... Whats becoming of me man? Keep on slacking. How to get good results? Alright... Going to sleep soon... Wake up to a brand new hardworking day. Haha... Cheers.

Oh I realised I have been bitchy of late like a girly sissy. Hahaha... I should learn to bitch less and get down to work fast. "-_- I am lagging behind. Ming tian hui geng hao... Okie time to realy sleep... Lights off... =]

Total unproductivity! But I don't feel stressed at all. Thats a bad sign. At the rate of one chapter per day, I am not gonna finish studying the tax quiz and ace it. Oh well... Main reason for procastination of studying diligently at the speed of light is ITS THE RECESS WEEKK!!! RELAX!!! haha... Yeah... I have been yearning for people to ask me out so that I will have even more excuses to procastinate. But luckily my friends are all busy with projects. Haha..

So I went swimming as I really had absolutely no mood to open the books and study. The skies were dark. Oh man... So sad. I didn't had a single bit of tan and my tan is fading. Soon the skinny but healthy skin tone Zhanyi will vanish and become a white chicken.

At the swimming pool, I must admit that there are tons of gays. Not that I am against gays, but I just kind of freak out when guys look at my body and den send winks to me. OMG!!! Goosebumps. Its really very uncomfortable man. There were two strangers who kept staring at me when I was changing after my swim and particularly at a specific part. They walk to and fro near me and look look see see with some sheppish expressions... OMG!! EEEKKss... Yucks... I quickly change and ran for my life just in case I get raped if I left one minute later.

Went bugis for a walk in search of slim tie. Haha... I can't wear normal tie cos it makes me look like a clown. I need to wear slimmer ties made for skinnier people to wear and look more proportionately right. So I found some... But all solid colours... I bought a black and a light green one. Hahaha... =] Impulse buying behaviour of Zhanyi. Hahaha... The light green one was not very nice but i still bought it... Don't know what I was thinking. Hahaha...

Oh well... So I came home and slept like a log for the whole day. Hahaha... Thats real bad. Buck up buck up!!! Tml will be a better mugging day. Credit Suisse aptitude test tml. Wish me LUCK LUCK LUCK!!! Haha... =]

I am supposed to study today. But I slacked the entire day doing nothing but rotting. Haha... Oh well... I can't help it but to think that I need a rest! its recess week!!! Hahaa... In the end, I only managed to study one chapter of tax. Oh man. Time is ticking away. Feeling very tired and boy my weight dropped from 67 to 65. "-_- I wanna grow fat fatter fattest!!! Hahaha... As in okie... look more normal and stop people from saying "OMG you are so skinny!!!" haha... Okie... stop being vain!!

Talking about the issue of guys being vain... I recently read an article from Mens Health which addresses the issue of vain guys. Haha.. The article is titled "Vanity Unfair - Rejoice, sloppy Joes. Women don't really need us to look like Brad Pitt." Haha... Basically, the article is saying that girls will get put off by guys who spend bulk of their time trying to look good. I think this part of the article makes alot of sense: "As a general rule of thumb,you shouldn't be spending more time in front of the mirror than we do. We like you to be athletic, and we still respect man who likes Project Runway, but let us be prettier half in this relationship, please." Haha... For your info the writer is a female. Haha... Ya... So guys don't spend too much time in the gym, shopping, and grooming yourself until your girl starts thinking if you are (1) trying to impress other girls and (2) you are gay. Haha...

Thats all... Bye... I hope everyone gets a good rest during the recess week.

I haven't blogged for days... So here I am again... to blog... some emo stuff... Haha...

I shall start with an ass pissing, fucking irresistibly annoying and hell bloody disappointing experience with someone whom I thought was quite a good friend with me or perhaps someone I regarded as a good friend. At the end of the day, the bottomline is still friends come and go, when they need you they come and when you cease to be able to give what they want they go. Don't we all committ this very mistake to our precious friends? I admit I do sometimes, but I tell myself not to be like this. Because tested and proven it generates lots of disappointment, sadness, and ill feelings.

So back to the tear jerking saga for me. Maybe to many of you all reading this, you all think its a trivial matter but to me it was really very sad and disappointing. So he asked if I had past year taxation quiz paper. I said I don't have. He laughed at me and I asked him to share with me so that we can all practise together and compare answers and learn together. He said something really bad to me... But the essence of it was pure selfishness. He said he couldn't share that piece of paper with me and something else which really pierce my heart. Till this point stop thinking I am gay or wad... I am not... And what he said which pierced my heart, I am not gonna say it here but the point is... aren't we all friends? When I have something useful I share with you, when I make notes I count you in and I photocopy every single sheet for you as a reference. And you never share things with me. When you are low morale, I try to talk you round although with vulgarities and insensitive wordings but it was all for the benefit of sparking your confidence again and helping you stand up again. But in the end, I realised I am nothing. Am I all stupid or am I just too kind that people climb all over my head?

I was disappointed, angry and sad. I expressed strong emotions in my msn personal message as usual. Shortly after, many friends asked me what happened. I am happy that many people care and are concerned with me. Finally, I know who are the real friends and who are the fake ones. The realities of life. We need to be cautious with people who try to act as though they are your friends but in actual fact they aren't. But again, maybe my definition of a friend is too restrictive - i.e. they musn't be selfish to me.

However, we all see in dramas... friends turn selfish because of competition. Especially when the other party is afraid that you may surpass him. This is especially the case for this saga. People think that I am smart, so if they share things with me I will make use of the thing more than they do and excel far much better than they do, hence turning selfish towards me. It is just weird how I won't feel and do this to other people. I share and if you excel or surpass me... So be it. That means its fair competition and you are smarter than me right? Oh well... I never understand the rationale behind competitiveness... A true heart will get you further than being narrow minded, selfish and competitive. After all, academic results aren't everything. Although I am very particular in getting good grades, I know that what is more important is a true and sincere heart.

Just like all my past work experience, it was dull, repetitive and simple job. I didn't do it perfectly well, but i fostered good relations with everyone. Till now, DBS VP stills calls me sometimes and ask me to go back and assist him. My team members for CPF GST offset package still remembers who I am now and calls me to ask me for advice. Its not because I had very good performance, its not because I am zai, but its because I do things and treat everyone with a true heart, with sincerity at work.

Thats all the emo-ness I had some time back... Haha...

Today marks the start of the recess week. I have started on my negative message for AB214 and thats the only thing I have done so far. Thats very bad. I have two quizzes coming up after recess week. 1 Board meeting which requires alot of coordination and I don't know how because I don't know alot of people in the Board. Hahaha...Of course, the recess week is for us to rest and I am gonna make sure i get enough rest but at the same time study enough to excel in my quizzes.

Going for Credit Suisse aptitude test on Tuesday. I hope I do well so that I will get an interview and get the job!!! Wooohhhooooo~ Hahaha... RHB Bank's results is not out yet. I applied for UBS operations also. But no news. Hahaha... Oh well... Hahaha... Patience. =]

Haven't blogged for quite some time... Some photos... =]

Its the AB213 Oral Defense for the Research Proposal today! Clearly, our oral defense was a major flop. The tutor scrutinized every single slide and gave negative comments for 90% of the slides. Alright... Best... Hahaha... But luckily, we got B+. She promised to be lenient since we are the first group and didn't know what to do for the research proposal. Subsequent groups who commit any mistakes will be penalized. Haha...

I think her way of grading makes more sense than the marketing tutor who graded based on comparsion of the presentations of the first group to the rest of the groups who clearly has a competitive advantage over the earlier teams by learning from the formers' mistakes. Oh well, the tutor made sense although she criticized us pants down. I can't imagine the marketing tutor teaching research methods. He will just say oh the proposal is very good... and in the end the whole report screw up because the initial proposal is not really very good and is not well defined. So in a way, I can imagine his research methods class suffering big time and getting lousy grades for a very heavy 40% weightage project. But of course, its just my hypothetical comment, it may not be true.

I am very shag because I haven't been getting enough sleep lately. This research proposal drains all my time for catching up with my tutorials. My tax tutorials are lagging behind big time. But I was surprised that I could like do most of the tax tutorial questions for today's seminar impromptu-ly on the spot when the tutor walked around the class asking for answers. Everyone thought that I was pro when I told the tutor the recovery of general provision for trade debt is not taxable because in the first place the expense incurred for a general provision is not deductible, so when you recover it makes sense that the receovery or income receipt is not taxable also mah. Haha... Like its sorta cause and effect logic which I think anyone can understand. So aiya... I am not pro man. Hahaha... I must proudly say I saved the class today again because the tutor slammed the whiteboard duster in agony when there was silence to her questions. Haha... Okie... I better stop hao lian-ing. Haha...

Time to rest. Yawnz... To end off, I shall leave everyone with this phrase: We lose to learn how to WIN!!! Don't give up!!

Friday, jiahui and jia xian came to my house and we later go to jiahui's house. Haha... Then the three of us took joanne's car to cheryl's place for secondary school gathering. We stayed at cheryl's place for some time and finally decided to head down to siglap for dinner. Haha... Cafe Cartel. Cheryl is missing in the picture because she was the photographer.
Saturday was spent doing research methods project in town first then later at the airport. I must say that I am not a good leader neither am I a good team player. I realised I cannot work like with a group of people. I need to work alone then I can churn out some stuff. Oh man... I must learn... Luckily Mindy did a good job at collating our scattered ideas into good nice english. We changed our venue from town to airport because me and jiahui, together with some other jc band members were going to send Michelle off to Brisbane. And so time past at the speed of light on this fateful saturday. "-_-

Sunday was spent catching up with all those tutorials and stuffs. The sun was shining bright in the morning so I went swimming as I havn't been exercising ever since the onset of neverending projects which hopefully ends by this week after my oral defense on thursday. It was also a day when all the relative will visit my house... and yeah... they were gambling... Haha... Many commented that i changed alot and that I looked older. OMG!!! They thought I am already working in some big pro company and I am so stressed that I become older looking. "-_-And so that was sunday.

Today back to school!!! Yeah!!! I reached school early as usual and the seminar room was locked. Oh wells... Sianz... So I sat at the S4 benches and starting playing around with my camera.

Haha... Narcissistic again... I realised I have got big nose... Hahaha... and my hair is in a mess today. I tried to spend the 4 hours break fruitfully by doing my tax tutorial. But clearly it was a furtile attempt. I did question 1 and decided that I should stop and go to NBS lounge for a nap. And so the time came for lessons to start. Haha... Tax lesson was pretty bad because very few did the tutorial and the tutor got pissed as she felt like she was explaining to wooden blocks who didn't know what was going on. Haha...

Tml is a free day and I am going out with my mum to get a rice cooker. Haha... No rice to eat sia... Rice cooker spoilt. Hahaha... Alright... thats all for now. Time is limited... I need to hurry up with research methods proposal and oral defense. Jiayou everyone!!!

杨宗纬 Rocks... His debut album 鸽子 is great!! I like all his songs... =] I am listening to his songs repeatedly. Haha... My fav song is 洋葱. You can listen it once you load my blog. Haha... Force you to listen. =X

The Leap Years Trailer

I saw this trailer on mobileTV and I think its quite an interesting show. As usual, I am not really interested in blockbusters, I like this kind of movies. I would think that it is a real meaningful movie. I will definitely want to watch this movie. =]

Before I blog anything... I am putting up an advertisement for Yit Woon and Jesslyn. Haha... They have set up a blogshop called My Walking Wardrobe. Got some nice clothes for girls. Affordable, nice and trendy. Take a look when you are free... =]

Finally its the chinese new year break... =] I am anticipating that I will just lie on my bed and rot for an entire day everyday of the new year break. Haha... I enjoy doing that. My hobby is rotting... Hahaha... Since school started I have been so busy that I seldom get the chance to like lie down close my eyes and think about stuff.

I was talking to another friend of mine who got the same AB214 tutor and we actually had the same sentiments about her grading system. Its just damn funny. Hahaha... But okie.. before you all carry on reading, its really for fun only. We hope that she isn't like that... if not I will risk getting a D for AB214... Haha... Here's the funny grading system:

F = Failure to consider her emotional needs (girls cannot look prettier than her, so go to her lesson with well done hair and make up you will get F)
D = Don't think you are my type... sorry (guys who are excessively skinny, will get D)
C = come skinny and I will not give you good grades... (guys who are skinny, will get C)
B = Better put on some weight when i see you next week cos I gave you B last week (guys of normal build will fall in this category)
A = Ah! U are my type honey! (guys who are big sized and well built, chubby guys are also acceptable)

Haha... So I guess you all can guess the grading system is focussed on what theme. Basically, its a female tutor in her 30s or 40s we are not sure, and has a fetish for big sized guys. Haha... Okie its really just a joke... So ya... Laugh your heads off and not treat it too seriously and start spreading that there's a lousy tutor who is not objective in her grading. Haha...

Today i slacked my day through... Only managed to prepare for the AA202 presentation tml and the AB214 re-presentation. Ah... Tired... My back hurts... Ouch... Old liaoz... Haha... Nitez everyone... Chinese New Year is coming... I am so excited... cos I am finally take a break and really rest for a few days... =]

Research methods is driving me crazy... The tutor is a b****. She is a**l. Haha... Time and again she reject our topic... At this rate, I don't know how we are going to even start doing anything for the project. I hate her so I curse her. Hope that she will **&%@!$!! Haha...

It was a tiring week for me. I am weighed down by projects. I am so tired. I am so lagging behind all my tutorials. History is repeating itself. I have so little energy left to read 100000000000000000000 journal articles and discover something that theories can't explain and finally develop a research topic and do a research. We are not intelligent souls who can find flaws in age old concepts and theories. We are not researchers who can close the gap between concepts and reality. We are just not. Its too much to ask of a pathetic 3 AUs subject. If we are on of the above we wouldn't be in pathetic NTU, we will be in Harvard or some biggie well known University. Conclusion the tutor is just a**l.

Enough said... I met for AA202 project and oh boy... Huan Hui compiled the slides very nicely. SMU students can not only present well but they can do very good presentation slides too!! They need no communication strategies lessons like I do. Haha... Speaking of comms. I looked at my video recording for impromptu and realised I am screwed. Its really one of the world's lousiest presentation ever. I feel like killing myself. Haha... The tutor told us to prepare for the same question and she is going to let us try presenting again. Haiz... Feel so loser. But we lose to learn how to win. Well slowly... I will learn the art of winning from consistent losing.

I am so tired. Time to take a nap... =] I am going to sleep at 4am again today. Haha... To try and read 1000000000000 journal articles. "-_- Wish me luck... Cheers... May there be miracles and the tutor gets replaced for good.