Yeah. Listened to their album liaoz. Its not bad. The not bad songs can be heard by clicking play button on my sidebar. =] I think the 需要你的爱 is not bad. Its a duet... But I can't identify whether the guy's voice is Real or Ian... Don't sound like Real. The 共鸣点 of the guy's voice is a little different from Real. Its either he changed his singing techniques or its not him. Hahaha...

Alright... Enjoy... School starts tml... should i =] or =[ ... ...

Here I am blogging again... Whenever I blog its the time when

1. I am feeling damn sianz, demoralised
2. I am feeling bored
3. I am stressed
4. I am sad
5. I am damn happy
6. I got alot of things to do but I just can't concentrate
7. I got nobody to talk to or feeling lonely
8. I feel unjust
9. I am just emo
10. I have got something interesting to share (hardly though...)

Haha... So see... I blog almost everyday... Haha... One or more of the states of mind are experienced on a daily basis.

I still have 4 chapters of investments to go... Spent the whole day doing maths methods holiday assignment and aa201 project. Well... I will survive. =] Positivity leads to success... I must believe in my ability to finish all those things on hand... I will burn midnight oil after I watch Guess Guess Guess tonight.

The stupid tuition kid parents aren't paying up again. "-_- I call, I sms, no response. They better pay me by tml. I need to put the money in for GIRO deduction of my school fees. Its just damn sianz... I think if I have accounts for this tuition job... I will need to Dr Impairment of Accounts Receivables and Cr Allowance for Impairment of Accounts Receivables. Haha... Percentage of allowances to provide for is 100% of the Accounts receivables. Gone mad. So the provision and related expense must spread out over 4 lessons because after each lesson I will recognise my revenue for the services I have completed. So expenses incurred due to the services rendered must match with revenue recognised. Haha... One of this days I shall draw up an income statement for this tuition job and determine if it is a profitable job. Scully, profit margin is like negative. Hahaha... Seriously... I am abit cranky liaoz... Haha...

Thats all for today... I am feeling stressed, demoralized, emo, lonely... ... Haha... SIAO is one good word to describe the combined effects of those feelings... Hahahaha...

Project projects projects... eat up all my precious time. I havn't really revised for my investment. 5 more chapters to go. "-_- Thats alot. May the force be with me. Haha...

Thursday - spent the whole day doing aa201 project in town. Didn't accomplish much. Why does accounting project seems like an investment project? Scratch head. Nobody knows~~~

Friday - Met at JEC during evening time to do aa102 project. Lots of refinements to make. question 3 still left undone. Reached home at 9 plus... Tada... The recess week is drawing to an end. Time is running out.

Recess week fly pass just like that. Week 9 next week. Very soon the exams will be here. I am still blur for alot of stuffs. May the force be with me. Hahahaha...

Alright... enough about me, myself and my boring life. Haha... Recently I heard something like that "The only thing I know in this world is that I don't know anything". Haha... I believe that people who always bear this in mind are the ones with most wisdom. They always try to learn from scratch and they acquire more than people who think they already know but in the end don't acquire much. So yeah... This shall be my motto for this sem. =] Time to rest... ZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzz

I am stressed... But well... Haha... I feel like buying new clothes... Cos the designer t-shirt shop t-shirts are lousy... They got bigger and bigger and bigger after wearing and washing a few times... And the material sucks... It 起毛 after a while. Oh man... The print fades off after 5 washes. "-_- I shall not buy t-shirts that cost $30 or less anymore... Shall buy from mainstream shops like zara, pull and bear, topman, river island and maybe surf brands. My sneakers are torn. "-_- My things just spoil very easily. Irritated...

So, people... My wish list...

1. New t-shirts (pull and bear got some nice ones with vintage prints)
2. New sneakers (I like the adidas stan smith II, white and green colour one)
3. New jeans (zara grey and black slim denim is nice, I want!!)
4. New wallet (project shop wallets are nice, but mine is going to be chui liaoz =/)

Alright seems so vain but.... I not wanting to buy new things when I don't need them its they are all in bad condition. Sobz... I am so sad... My things are just ruined so easily.

YAY!!!! Its recess week. "-_- Half of it is almost gone. Havn't done much revision BUT I have been swimming, doing workouts and running to my hearts content. Yay!! Something I cannot do as often when there is school cos my timetable the timing is neither here nor there. So... Ya... It always feels good after exercising. It feels as though you have rid yourself of all the "evils" in your body... ... "Evils" as in like bodily toxins. Haha... Alright sound like a girl liaoz... detoxification to slim down... Haha.. No I am not slimming down I am still trying to gain weight though my BMI is already 20.9 which is close to acceptable weight for asian men. But then, I still look underweight. Gotta train those narrow shoulders. Feeling good, looking not so good though. Stress makes people look dull. Haha...

So we come to the point on vainity - whether vainity is only restricted to girls. Yes.... To a certain extent. Girls have all the rights to be vain. Haha... Don't know why also. Then again, too vain a girl makes her a vain pot which not many people like. But guys? Vain = Gay??? So according to candy she says "Gay guys are more vain in general, but not say vain guys straight away is gay... Have to see his dispositions." Haha... Just a summary or vague idea of what she said, not the actual words. Ya... Actually I agree with that. Haha...

I think vainity should be divided into positive vainity and negative vainity. Positive vainity meaning you make sure you look good, look presentable to present a clean polished image of yourself which is reflective of your own positioning (e.g. age, fashionable, matured, working class etc.). Negative vainity meaning you are overdoing it, you are obssessed with looking good; you try all means to look as good as possible. So... I believe, all of us should have a certain degree of positive vainity be it guys or girls. We only live once, and we only get a chance to be young once. So... Make yourself look good and your age.

I don't see why not and why guys cannot look good and fashionable. I don't see why some guys relate fashionable guys to gays. Mens fashion is not gay. Its for all men. Haha... alright, not that I have anything against gays by emphasizing that the negative correlation of gay to fashion, but I am just trying to emphasize the point that straight guys can also be fashionable. Erms.. okie... Digress too much... So back to vainity. Yeah... Positive vainity is essential for this dynamic society. Take for example, yesterday I went Bloomberg for a course on how to use their system, I saw that all their male staffs are quite polished. They dress well and they care about looking good - nice short fashionable haircut, nice fitting shirt etc. Thats the amount of vainity some guys need to work on failing which you will find yourself having some difficulty fitting in a particular corporate culture.

Alright wasted quite some time blogging... Time to mug...

歌曲：第二个自己
歌手：杨丞琳
专辑：任意门

这是我们走在一起的第三个夏天
聊起我来还那么肤浅
总爱对人炫耀我的微笑有多么甜
却不曾看到我另一面

我喜欢冬天 喜欢音乐 喜欢冒险
别总以为你爱的就是全世界

我只好偷偷藏起
第二个自己
没关系对你毕竟 没有意义

我愿为你去学习
忘记自己
继续努力活得鲜明安定

是否会再理解不再爱我的那一天
我已经换了陌生的一面
原来可以因为爱上一个人而改变
还要求自己不改那一面

我其实任性 其实爱哭 其实腼腆
是你以为你了解我的全世界

我只好偷偷藏起
第二个自己
没关系对你毕竟没有意义

我愿为你去学习
忘记自己
继续努力就活得鲜明安定

我只好偷偷藏起
第二个自己
没关系对你毕竟没有意义

我愿为你去学习
忘记自己
继续努力就活得鲜明安定

I like this song very much... The range of this song is nice... From the low airy notes to the high falsetto notes. I like it very much. The lyrics are good too. Speaks of a person who trys to hard to change for someone who thinks he understands her when in fact he don't. But I think dynamics changes are lacking in the song... Still overall a very nice song... =]

I am back from my project meeting. This is by far the best and most efficient project meeting I had since the beginning of uni life. Everyone in the group prepared for the meeting and we had real meaningful discussions. Thanks my group mates!!!!!!! Haha... We are pro! =]

Friday... Its finally my free day because AB228A has finally ended.

Wee~ I went swimming in the morning...

Met my mum for lunch and went to buy mooncake.

Left my mum when she went to meet my aunt, and I headed to bugis to cut my hair.

After the haircut, I went to national library to do research for my aa102 project. Initially, I thought I will return home empty handed with no materials found. But I found Star Cruises' 10th anniversary publication. There are lots of info in it and I guess we can just depend on this very book for the whole project. Haha... Of course with injection of our own ideas.

I didn't mug today. I told myself that today is a rest day for me. Haha... and I think back.. walau... Like everyday is my rest day. I discovered that my time is almost up. Its almost oct already. Meaning in about a month's time we will be having our exams. It seems to me that yesterday was just the first day of school. Time flies...

Time flies and I can understand why abner is worried about alot of stuff... Not being able to do enough mugging to get A, not being able to get a gf etc. I as a friend encourage him not to be worried about the gf part. But well... I am a little worried myself.

Although its said that it all depends on fate and that someone will be there for you one day, I can't help but to have a feeling that if I stay on doing nothing I can remain a single for the next half of my life. Haha... Yeah... feeling emo... But... gf this kind of thing... its no.1 you don't see anyone suitable for you, no. 2 you see someone you like but the person is a potential outright rejector because you observe and understand what she is looking out for. So... Yeah... its fate... its difficult for 2 people to get together.

Then someone says for no. 2 if you don't try you will never know. So my answer is I tried too many times. Hahaha... I am sure of my gut feel, it never fails. Don't only think that women have accurate six senses. Guys can have accurate gut feel when he tried too many times. Haha...

Then another person will say if you try hard enough she will be moved. So my answer will be does she even know that what you are doing is trying hard? Haha... Yeah... Negative emotions that is. Pessissmistic. But... Well... This kind of things you stay positive, you may become a pest or a leech. Haha...

I am 22... I feel old... I still don't know alot of things... I need to learn... I need to improve... Thats all... emo-ness is bad for health. Sleeping shall stop this emo-ness... =]

I have been busy doing nothing... haha... There is a emotions for everyday life test today. So I tried hard to prepare for it even though I am intending to s/u. Haha... In the end, the test is not really that simple. So... Ya... Study liaoz also like that. Haha... Have been spending time trying to stay current and up to date for my tutorials. So... Ya rather busy these days.

Next week is recess week. But it seems like its not much of a recess because there are just so many things to be done. "-_- Is there even time to rest and relax in the recess week? I hope so...

Enough about my boring life. Haha... That day someone asked me whether virginity is important. Haha... Its a very subjective topic. But my answer was in this modern society where premarital sex is so common, I think virginity is not so important.

So to support my stand, I would have a hypothesis. Suppose, Miss A and Mr B has been dating for 4 years and on one faithful day they decided that they are just close enough to engage in sex. So they had sex. Miss A lost her virginity. During the next year, Miss A and Mr B had a lot of disputes out of a sudden leading to an eventual break up. Miss A meets Mr C and they got together after one year of being friends. Both had mutual love. Do you think that Mr C will just disregard his love for Miss A just because she lost her virginity to Mr B before? I am sure Mr C won't. What is the value of virginity in a relationship? Do we all date just because we want sex out of a relationship or do we date because we love the company of the other person? I would think that a relationship is a relationship. X love Y. Thats it... Virgin or not does it really matter? If virginity is important in a sense that you are not the first or she/he had already been possessed by another party before, we have to ask ourselves is love a possession?? Love is love its not a possession. Nobody likes to be possessed. So love is not about possession. Hence, we should not let virginity hinder a relationship based on the point of possession.

Of course the hypothesis is too idealistic and not always true in the real world. Sex viewed in a more liberal way is yet another expression of love or in fact deep love. So if virginity is lost based on love, I wouldn't think that it is important. On the flip side of the coin, there are people who just have sex for pleasure, not saying that the former proposition doesn't give pleasure but saying that sex is a transaction more than an expression in this case. Transaction in that sex is an exchange of pleasure for each other with no love attached. These transactions occur often with different people. Virginity lost in this aspect may be reflective of the person and in this case, virginity is important.

Alright, my views may be of a tunnel vision, so I welcome discussions from my readers. Haha... Thats all for today. Cheers. Enjoy!!

Keluar Baris (Homecoming)
A short film by Boo Junfeng about a boy who returns from his studies in Europe, two days before he is enlisted into the army. A sensitive depiction of an 18-year-old's struggle between national duties and personal liberty. Featuring Daryl Pan. Produced by Jeremy Sing, Joanne Bartholomeuz and Boo Junfeng.


I found this on youtube and I just had to post it here because it seems interesting. It seems like a emo show but actually I guess it could be trying to depict the feelings of guys before we get enlisted into army. Haha... I still remembered that the night before I got enlisted I didn't sleep a wink because I was scared of a total change in lifestyle and most importantly I wasn't physically fit. So ya... Got enlisted in fear honestly... But come to think of it... Haha... It passed by already. Army opened my eyes to many things and yes it made me more matured though I am still largely childish now. Haha... Can imagine how much more childish I was before I entered army? Haha... Better don't imagine. Ya. And army is a overall good experience though you meet bastards and real faggots who chao geng but still you meet wonderful people whom you will remember and be friends with for life. It is overall a good experience also because training was duanting, tiring, tough but still fun. Will never forget the uncontrolled navigation exercise when we drank water from the stream and shivered in cold in the spooky forest cooking maggi mee and sardines to eat and keep ourselves warm, sleeping on a hammock... ... The list goes on... Now that you think back, army is actually fun, although back then we felt fucked up as training was tough like shit and some people's true self out in the field was ugly. Oppz... Okie... I digress alot. Backs to the movie. I bet its nice... For those who can appreciate it.

I am bored. Haha... When I have so much to do and I havn't done it. Yawnz... The books make my eyelids so heavy.

Anways, I went swimming yesterday!!! Yeah!!! I am so happy. So long never go swimming... I swam for a long time... Many laps... Feels good... All those flabs feels like tight muscles after swimming.... Haha... =]

Today went to give tuition. The kid is improving at a tremendous speed. Don't know what got into him... Haha... Suddenly he can do all the maths problems and he asked for more homework!!!! OMG!!! Miracle... ... Haha... Thats all... MV for everyone... enjoy...

杨丞琳 - 缺氧 MV
This song is the theme song for Why Why Love. Haha. The drama is a typical love story... Boring... But the song is nice. Haha... Check out her latest jelly-fish haircut in this MV. BOB not fashionable liaoz lahz. Haha...

There are points in life when we start to think of the future. How are we gonna work towards our goals? Or even what are the goals? In school, we meet people who have gone very far ahead of us and we start worrying about how to even catch up. We start to feel inferior to the former but yet we don't where, when and how to start enriching ourselves to be half as knowlegable as them.

There are points in life when we start to feel lonely. We look around and see people walking in pairs. We start to worry when, where and how are we gonna be walking in pairs instead of walking in a single file. In school, we meet alot of people but many a times at one glance you know very well who and who aren't gonna even be your friends and who and who are gonna be just friends and nothing more. We start to look into the mirror and ask why are we always feeling lonely...

There's a saying: "When you feel down, you will find everything annoying including your own reflection." Its true... Haha... Thats all I am gonna talk about today. =]

Today is yet another long day... Tired... Haha... Eve accompanied me to wait for the person who wants to buy my t-shirts I put up on sale on keeptouch. Haha... Waited so long.... Haha... Feel damn bad cos like wasting Eve's time. Haha... Eve is very smart... I asked her some investment questions and she explained and help me understand mans... Thanks... I think I should buy her a drink or a meal to thank her for her accompaniment and help.

I am pissed with someone who talked to me on msn... Haha... Irritated... Seriously, don't know your stuff don't come and crap to a person who knows his stuffs. Seriously... I hate the belittled feeling... So don't try to make it seem like you belittle me... It piss me off... Not saying I am damn smart but even if I am stupid and you think you are smart do your part by imparting your knowledge to me to make me smarter. Stop saying one thing and stop halfway thinking that I can't understand because if you don't tell me the full story I won't understand your whole story. Thats all... Scram if you are trying to make yourself seem smarter because you will just seem like a fool to me.

Tomorrow is the last friday I have to wake up at 5am and go for a 830am lesson. Wee~ I can finally devote my fridays for swimming. =]

Its a long day today... I had lots to blog today but I can't remember them all. Haha... Today is an unlucky day. I ate lunch at 10am to go for my aa102 project meeting. After the meeting, suyun and yihui accompanied me to go buy the sandwich from the sandwich machine. The first machine had sold out the sandwiches, the second one didn't want to accept my notes. Brilliant. In the end I decided not to eat anything and go for the investment lessons straight. Investment lesson was a torture. There was a surprise quiz again. WTF... I cannot get the answers. I am damn upset. Me and suyun frantically searched the textbook for the correct way to work out the answers but that didn't work, we didn't get the correct answers. "-_-

Was talking to candy online and we had a difference in opinion regarding this: Guys wearing skinnies? Haha... We discussed this topic because I wear one and people say that its gay and the person who says it is a faggot. Haha... You will know why I say so when you see the real person. Well anyways, back to the motion of this debate "Is it okie for guys to wear skinnies?" I think its okie and fashionable. There are an increasing number of guys who wear skinnies in singapore. Of course in NTU, there is close to none except me. Haha... Make a trip down to town and observe the guys' bottoms. Many wear skinnies these days. Its the trend. But of course mens fashion will never reach NTU guys as it is symbolic of gayness here. Seriously whatever. I tried in vain to convince candy that mens skinnies are nice by trying to show her photographs of men wearing skinnies. So yeah I am going to convince the mass public reading my blog that mens skinnies are alright and its definitely not gay, not weird and not off.

See for mens' skinnies, the crouch area is not so tight. It is deeper and there is room even though its low rise. So its not like female skinnies which is skin tight and really low rise with shallow crouch area. Well anyhows, I am sure after looking at all these photos, most NTU guys will still not know what is so nice about skinnies. I think its nice because it gives a sharp, clean minimalist silhouette. Watch some fashion shows and you will be enlightened by what it means. See Dior Homme, D&G, LV... Most of their pants are skinnies. Haha... Thats all...

The coming discussion topic... Is blogging a girlish activity??? Provide your comments in my tag board. Haha... This is fun... I shall post discussion topics whenever I have one and see whats the response. Haha... Its always good to absorb views from others so that we can learn and grow. Haha... But I foresee that very few will actually respond. Alright... Time to sleep...

Monday was the BF212 maths methods test. Haha... Investment matrix, arrow debreu securities. I got the answers. Well done... But explanation part i think is chui because I never really understood whats abitrage opportunities. Hahaha... Nvm... Its over. Wee~

Have been mugging reasonably often since the start of this week. I hope I keep up this pace. Haha...

Alright studies aside... I have tried to keep up with new music releases. Haha... Quite a number of new releases/coming soons recently:

1. 蔡依林 - 特务J
I personally don't like this song 特务J. Its fast and the words are all lumped together, can't really hear what she is singing.

2. 杨丞琳 - 任意门
I have listened to the whole album. Basically a good album with a good mix of fast and slow songs. Haha... Fast songs seemed to have shifted from cute cute style to one that has some attitude. I think this time round she added more bass in her voice to make it less cutsy. Not used to a bassy Rainie voice. Haha... But overall still a very nice album to listen to.

3. 范玮琪 - 哲学家
I have also listened to the whole album. Erms... No songs really catch my attention. No melodies remain in your mind after listening to it. Don't really like it.

4. F.I.R. - 爱.歌姬
I am looking forward to the release of this album. Its gonna be a great one. Have listened to one songs from the album called 月牙湾 over the radio. Its NICE!! I call it fusion music. The arrangment of the music is unique. Its made up of various different instruments from different countries. The song sounds very tribal but yet modern and new aged. Haha... Don't know how to describe it. Its just different and nice. Haha...

Thats all... Enjoy... =]

Sunday that is... A full mugging day with periodic disturbing of random msn contacts. Haha... I am mad... Anyways, I feel unprepared... Weird feeling... I study study and study... at the end of the day like i can't remember anything... Guess for subjects like maths is like that... When you see the questions, you can somehow remember how to do it. Wee~ Haha... Practice makes perfect... But I didn't practice. Laziness... If there is a Mr Lazy shirt I think I should go and buy and wear. I am bloody lazy. Always lazy to do things.... Haha... See the full collection of Mr Men t-shirts... Short of one to make it a total 12 pieces. The last one shall be Mr Lazy... Haha... I think Mr Cool look like me... Haha...

Backs from my shopping trip with Abner... Haha... Bought nothing... Abner is rich. He has a UOB infinity credit card which can buy things like plane, cruises and etc. My credit card is useless compared to his. Haha... He keeps buying clothes... He says he want to upgrade his wadrobe. I wanted to buy a bag but I couldn't find a nice one with a reasonable price. Haha... We saw a zara tote... wah... damn nice... its 300 plus lorz. "-_- Its like leather. I will just bring the ugly backpack to school again next week. Haha...

Abner says that I am defeatist on the exterior. WTF... Damn sad... Do I look frail? I don't wad... At least I am sure I don't... Haiz... Why? Got some bastard in my AA201 class actually thought that I am a girl... You are the tall girl right??? Haha... Like jokes man... Which part of me look like girl? Forcing me to exercise my vocabulary of foul language. I got no boobs, I got no milky white skin, I don't have real high pitch voice that resembles a girl wad... Haiz... Whatever lorz... Well... Okie... I should stop bitching like a girl... Just in case people read this blog and think tomatoez is a girl... Haha... I am nicknamed tomatoez because I get red like a tomato easily... Not because I think tomatoes are cute and I call myself by something I think is cute. Haiz... Seriously... Whatever... ... ...

Its damn late liaoz... I am not studying for my test le. Tomorrow should be a full mugging day. Aim for full marks. Haha... The thing is aim high score high... Even if you fall short of you goal you are still there. Haha... Yeah... I am positive about everything... I am not defeatist... I shall not be... Haha... Although I used to be one... Smilez to a wonderful life ahead... Cheers... Go watch tv...=]

Its a saturday... I am supposed to study for my test... But the morning sun was tempting. I went swimming until 12pm and bought lunch home. Yucks... The noodles was disgusting. Haha... Next time I shall cook myself. Haiz... I still can't get my butt down to study. Come to think of it... I think I am kind of the slackest in school. This sem everyone is kind of fuelled up to study more diligently because they know the course is tough. But here I am still lazing around... Haha... I need to pull up my socks!!!! But first a nap is essential for me to get enough energy to burn midnight oil.

AA201 test was a breeze. I balanced the figure on the first try. Well done... No more frustration of not being able to balance our figures during aa101 days. I guess I am just much more confident that I can do it thats why I read the questions carefully and make sense out of everything quick and got the figures right swiftly. Yay!!! Pat on my shoulders. The only part which I think I will get marks deducted is the notes to account. But nevermind... I should guess 80 marks is the minimum I can get. Haha... unforessen circumstances not included.

Th end of this test marks the beginning of the next. Monday is the maths methods test. Damn alot to study. "-_- Damn scared. But still I spent tonight rotting. I will be spending tomorrow going out. I got one day left to study. Wish me luck... Nvm... Maths methods got three quizzes. This quiz cmi, get full marks for the next two. Haha... Wee~

Boring... my blog is all about studying... Hahaha... But thats my life as a student... Haha...

Finally I am in school today after my sicky episode for the past 2 days. Haha... Feeling good. No more giddiness, no more headaches... Yay!!! went for one lesson and I flew back home expecting to study for my test tomorrow. But in the end... nothing gets in... I decided that if I understand the concepts I can do the test tomorrow. So I decided that I have already understood the concepts. So thats it... No need to prepare liaoz... Haha...

I was browsing some blogs from other people and I realised that people have far more exciting life than me. Haha... They really do have a life. They really look like they were enjoying what they were doing. They really look joyous, happy, cheerful. It sets me thinking... Where is my life? Haha... No I am not emo... Just thinking mans... People always say oh I need a girlfriend whenever I say that... because it seems like I am bored and got no accompaniment. But that is not true. I don't think I need a girlfriend to be like the people who really enjoy themselves out there. Its two different things. I don't know how to articulate my feelings. But ya... If you get me you get me if you don't then move on. Haha... It also brings me to the point of how despo single guys at my age can get. Why do they keep thinking that they are doomed when they do not have a girlfriend at this age? Why do they keep thinking that they need to change to attract girls? Why do they keep thinking that they are outcast if they don't have a girlfriend? It just means that fate is not here yet for you. And if you can't attract girls means you can't. Haha... Guys will never know what girls look out for in guys. Guys may think wah... this guy sure the girls will like, but turn out the girl thinks the latter is disgusting. So ya... Haha...

Time to sleep... Wish me luck for tomorrow's test. =]

Its another day well spent at home resting... I didn't go for my investment lessons. "-_- I havn't done my tutorials... But the fever that never seem to subside deter me from touching the books, the notes nor the pen, pencils and rulers. My head is still spinning, my brain is still lethargic, my limbs are still weak, my eyes are still half opened... Oh man... Sounds so weak... ... ...

I got a fever today... Have to stay at home liaoz... Cannot go lecture. "-_- I spend the whole afternoon sleeping my time away... Haiz... I hope I will recover by tomorrow so that I don't have to miss anymore lessons. I tried to study abit but cannot.. I see the books I get headache. So guess I just need to rest and relax for the time being...

Morning emo-ness... I dreamt about the past... Silly... All those talks to encourage myself to put the past behind and move on is fake... Subconciously, I still havn't let go. This is bad... I feel so bad... Haiz...

Recently, I heard something like this: "Although I didn't love you the way you want me to, it doesn't mean that I didn't love you as much as you did love me." I felt that it is so true.

Whatever. I havn't been swimming recently. Have got no time... Busy scrambling through all my notes to prepare for quizzes, tutorials etc. I must find a day to go swimming. Haha... Havn't been doing my weights training frequently also... All those muscles gonna become flabby fats. Haha... But well even if so... I will still look skinny. Wee~ Haha... It is so weird, even though I still look skinny I weigh 65kg now. Haha... Feel so contended because I packed on 15 kg in the past 4 months. Haha... My berms, jeans, t-shirts, shirts are starting to get kind of tight... And I think back... I am like how skinny last time???!!! Haha... Time for tuition... Yucks its gonna rain... I hate rain... I love the sun... come out sunny sunny... Haha... miss sentosa, miss vball, miss playing the flute, miss playing in the band, miss singing, miss everything I always do in the past... miss them all... people included...