The effects of being too stressed about work:

You feel energetic, but when you touch the work you are supposed to do, you can't concentrate. This is bad. I studied econs for the whole weekend. But my mind is now blank. I can't remember much of the things I have studied. My 1,000,000 gb harddisk in my brain is faulty, it has too many bad sectors that everything cannot be saved in it nor can any programs be installed. It is infected with an unknown virus. I am dead once this hardisk cease to load the OS.

I am having the same kind of feeling I had for FM last sem for every subject this sem. The feeling of unfamiliarity with the subject. The feeling of low confidence for my understanding of any of the topics.The feeling of uncertainty. I don't want a B grade for this sem's subjects like FM. I don't want a GPA of 3, I want at least 4.

It is not as though I hvn't been mugging hard enough. I have been doing so just like what I did for FM last sem. But the fact is that this feeling is worrisome. I don't like this feeling, I don't want this feeling to lead me to a lousy B grade. Like many said, a B grade in uni is below average. I don't want to be in the below average range.

I must mug even harder tml to get the kind of confidence I had for accounting last sem - the overbearing confidence on my level of undertsanding and familiarity in the subject that could even eradicate stress up to the point that I stop mugging for it one and a half days before the exams.

It is now 232am and I have to wake up at 530am tml. I can't fall asleep. Is it just stress or are there other things holding my back, pulling my down and tripping me off? The answer is to just relax and let go. Only with a relaxed mind can I attain my best performance. I will try to fall asleep. counts...1 sheep, 2 sheeps, 3 sheeps, 4 sheeps, 5 sheeps, 6 sheeps, 7 sheeps, 8 sheeps, 9 sheee... ...