Chem elective exam yesterday. Haha... Left after one hour plus. Econs exams today. Erm... Can do... Hopefully can get A... Haha... One last exam to go... I am in no mood to study. Haha... I shall start tml morning.

I saw something and I finally understand. Its just different. I don't belong there. Why did it fail? Because there was a misfit. Why did it all disappear? Because it wasn't supposed to be there from the start, you force them to be there for you. I should have known it. But it is difficult to let go. Some people can take days, while some take years. It has been a year and to be honest... I... shall just keep it to myself. It is for the better of everything. Everyone chose the right path... It is better to suffer alone...

Emo emo me... It is not doing me good... But well... To say that I had been happy all this while I must be deluding myself but I definitely am trying hard to be. Of cos to say that I am depressed it is abit too farfetched, there were definitely happy moments and times when I feel love. But, I am just not ready. It isn't fair to start a race when you are not ready. Haha... Okie... But well... I am definitely more positive recently... I don't think so much... I can just put down things fast. But well... some things are easy to pick up but difficult to put down. So... ya... To let it not bother me, I will find some things that I like to do... There are a list of things I want to do but I foresee that I do not have the financial capability to embark on any... Here is the list:

1. I want to learn playing keyboard and guitar
2. I want to learn graphic design
3. I want to learn fashion design
4. I want to learn driving
5. This one don't need money but... it seems quite difficult oso... To grow fatter... Haha...
6. I want to upgrade my wardrobe (mean buy some new clothes lahz... Haha...)
7. I want to learn more singing techniques
8. I wished I had a Miyazawa flute so that I can play all my favourite pieces everyday.
9. I want to play volleyball... but well... er... who want to play with a lousy noob like me? Haha...
10. I want a part time job with a HIGH HIGH HIGH HIGH pay so that I can fulfill some of my wants listed above. Haha...