McCafe in town after school. Met Yiwen to study. Haha... Studied for 2 hours. Went walking around while waiting for the others to come for dinner. So... took photos...

Dinner with the DBS people at this japanese restuarant at Taka. I couldn't remember the name of it. It is a celebration or farewell for Lena. Haha... Heard tons of stories. Some got promoted already. New agents. Some married or getting married at such a young age??? Haha... They went kbox after the dinner but I decided not to go because I am giving tutition tomorrow and I better come home and rest well to recharge myself for another day of mugging. Haha...

Stats tutorial... Haha... Half the class was missing and the tutor ended the lesson after one hour... Haha... Got out assignment back. Haha... A- same grade as the previous assignment. How I wish this assignment grade takes up 50%, so that even if my exams flop this one will help. Haha... Obviously dreaming.

OB lecture. Haha... Brought my laptop and many were amazed with my vista skin on a windows xp os. Haha... It was a perfect clone complete with all icons, interface and functions of vista. Haha... I am damn proud of it. The only thing missing here could perhaps be the vista transparent window tingy which I was unable to clone... Its nice enough... but growing a little sick of it already. Haha... Hmmz... Clone a mac os? Haha... Can consider. Try on my desktop first. Haha...

Came back home and like don't know why I just wanted to sleep even when I am not tired. So I just lie on my bed close my eyes and poof!!! 2 hours passed. OMG!! I started to study abit of stats which I had studied halfway in school during the break after the stats tutorial and before the OB lecture. Then I grew sian of stats and started to continue reading the rethinking marketing group. I realised that our makreting project missed a few points. Haha... Okie let me revise what I have just found out from today's reading.

Firstly, I want to talk about positioning. I didn't knew that for positioning there were actually 4 criterias to take note. Essentially, these 4 criterias are the 4 Cs - customer, company, competitor and change. Here, the 4 Cs are on a more micro scale as opposed to the environment outlook 4C submodel. Let us take a closer look at each C:

1. Customer: Positioning should be perceived positively by customer, giving them a reason to buy. Positioning must bring value to the customer making it an asset for the customer.

2. Company: Positioning should reflect the internal capabilities of the company for instance its strengths and competitive advantage. For example, Cathay Pacific positioning itself as "the heart of asia" is suggestive of its location-based competitive advantage where its home base is Hong Kong, the hub of Asia within five hours' flying time to area populated by half the world's people.

3. Competitor: Positioning must be unique enough to be able to differentiate itself from its competitors.

4. Change: Positioning must be sustianable, i.e. to be always relevant with the changes in business environment.

Next, I want to talk about the dimensions of differntiation which I didn't knew until today. Okie, so basically, there are 3 dimensions:

1. Content: What you actually offer to your customers, what are the values offered? (tangible part of differentaition)

2. Context: The intangible part of differentiation - the way you offer your products and services to your customers. In essence, it refers to the efforts put in to help customer perceive that the company is offering differently. The most direct form would be superior service.

3. Infrastructure: The enabler - includes technology, people and facilities used to create content and context.

Thats about the new concepts I learnt today. The reason for typing it here is that I will remember better by typing some sort of a review of something that I never knew until I studied for it.

Today is a day I realised never to start doing things fast!!! Why? Because I am like almost done for a NO PAGE LIMIT OB creative shitty assignment. I did 16 pages worth of in depth explanation and linkage to the thoeries we learnt. In the end, the OB women come and tell us the most for this assignment is 3 pages. What the hell? It says NO PAGE LIMIT. In the end, she give this kind of shitty rule. Waste my time and effort. So I devised a motto: Never start things early. Start things at the last minute and heck care more to avoid the wastage of brain cells, precious time and energy.

This new motto I had is further reinforced during comm. mgt. presentation. Seriously, this is one of the presentations which I have totally no prior preparation of scripts or whatsoever. I just did the slides and have in mind roughly what to say. AND... it turned out great! Tried engaging the class and it worked, when I never really have a set of prepared speech to be articulated and I started bullshitting, I didn't feel nervous at all. The most important thing is I made everyone laugh including the shirley women. Haha... First time I can do such things and people respond. Of course the class was helping by giving overwhelming responses to every presenter's questions. But it is still like one of my best presentations ever for this sem. Jokes. And I tried to cover up for my failure to buy the props for my presentation by saying "Oh erm... Kiwi fruit is out of stock, so I have no samples for you all." Haha... Jokes... The shirley women exposed my failure by saying "It is not out of stock, I had it this morning!" Bloody hell... Whoever eats kiwi fruit in the morning? Weirdo! I was thinking to myself, why would I want to waste money buying props for a presentaion that I didn't care much man? Waste money, waste time, waste energy. I can spend the money for eating other things which will give me more statisfaction. Its not like if I bring the kiwi fruits she will give higher grades. The grades are like predetermined by her lorz... After my funny introduction she totally switched off and she wrote something at the end of the grading paper and was busy doing HER OWN STUFF already. Thanks to the marketing tutor, I am observing audience response... particularly one audience - the tutor. Best lahz! She is like only paying attention to the ones she like. Like this weirdo in the class who screamed last week in class for whatever fucking reasons. This week this weirdo did some sissy dance and she like it so much that she said it was very good. In the first place his voice and his tone is like muffled and monotonous. Not that I think damn highly of my own presentation but at least my voice and tone is not like his but its like really... Whatever... Its over. Yay!!!!!!!

Haiz... Plan study plan... but never follow... Studied like one chapter for OB today only. Seriously OB = SHIT. The textbook is so difficult to read and understand. I wonder if I can even finish reading all the chapters in the OB text. I am leaving OB alone for now.

Tomorrow I am going to study as much macro economics as possible in preparation for the quiz on Mon. But I foresee that I will be too tired to do it. Lessons end at 630pm thanks to the lousiest module ever - COMMUNICATIONS MANAGEMENT!!! Tomorrow will be the last presentation task. We are supposed to be ourselves and do a FUN presentation. But the question is what if myself = not very active = not very fun. So how? Fail? Can't be bothered. The women is crazy. Last week someone screamed and she thinks its VERY GOOD. Best. I will scream and run around the room if I fail to make my presentation fun. Haha... =X Talking rubbish. Wish me luck and probably I get possessed tomorrow and become "myself" giving a fun presentation.

阿沁 Real - 其实还爱你 MV Nice song... Haha... But its another sad song...

Well well.. went for stats lecture. The lecturer was really super funny. Haha... break then econs tutorial. Haha... Nothing much. Feeling lazy... Feeling sianz... Surfed friendster and clicked on the wrong thing. Saw the things that reminds. Its the past... Forget it... Easier said than done... A sleep will help. Hopefully when I wake up I am charged up with energy to mug.

Well, its day two of my official mugging period before the exams. But, till now I am not following it strictly. I am like wasting time doing my tutorials and the stupid comm mgt presentation. I hope I will accomplish more things tomorrow.

I am going for stats lecture tomorrow after skipping it for so long because I find that the last few chapters are like difficult. So to maximise time, I better wake up early and go for lecture so that I don't waste this amount of time sleeping and waste another 2 hours or so to understand the examples in the book and do my tutorials. Buck up! Pull my socks up to my neck. No time to waste. I must maintain a GPA of at least 4 this sem. Although it means I will be out of deans list, it is perhaps the minimum I should be getting. I take a look at the exam timetable and I just realised that I will have no time to study for econs because of my electives exams.

Well, we reap what we sow. So if I work hard now it is not too late still. Jia you!!

Went for tuition in the morning. OMG!! The kid got 13/40 for his chinese test. The mum questioned me. Then I told her I taught him everything le... And I showed the evidence - The work the kid has done. But the mum just refuse to believe that I have taught him anything. I almost wanted to tell her your son is stupid and has a bad attitude! But I didn't lahz. The kid did the test with a dice he made out of his eraser and he proudly showed it to me. For mcq I throw the dice, if its 1 I put the answer as 1. I was like, why you do that.

Me: "You read the question now and tell me the answer."

The kid: "Aiya the answer is 3 I know lahz. So easy."

Me: "Then why you use the dice to answer when you know?"

The kid: " Aiya, lazy to do lahz. Somemore my dad bluff me one. Everytime say if I do well he will buy me a gameboy but he say from last year until now also haven't buy. SO.... I no need to do so well one. Treat it as a game. Its just a test."

I was like what the hell... I almost wanted to slap his face. But I just told him next time you cannot do that or else you will see a new tution teacher who will give you ten pages worth of homework for each subject every week. Then , he said don't want! You better, last time the meiling lao shi give so much homework until I want to faint, now you teach me I don't want to faint cos got not so much homework. Then I was like you do the test with a dice to make your mum think that I am a lousy tutor so I am going to be fired sooner or later. Nevermind. Kids. I am going to be unemployed soon.

Came back home. Haha... Joined forces with Abner to do the stupid OB creative thinking individual written assignment. Seriously he is pro lahz. Haha... His part and my part... Vast difference. He already read the OB text 3 times. When he said that I realised I better start reading my text from tomorrow onwards.

Went for dinner with army guys. Everyone was still the same. Haha... All engine students. Haha... It was supposed to be a birthday celebration for ee hung and eugene. Haha... After dinner we went to starbucks and we started using gavin's laptop to disturb a person on msn. Obviously, this person likes to boast alot and we heard that he is dying in SMU. So I accidentally slammed him. Haha... I said something like aiya his intellect level isn't of the SMU level and his english is like shit. Of course he will be a reject and misfit in SMU lahz. Then I was like OMG, I am so mean like as though I am so smart lidat. I better stop slamming people like that. So like we pretend to be a girl friend of gavin and said that she saw him in SMU and thinks he is damn cute. Haha... Jokes... The story goes on. Haha... His replies just shows something about him. But... better dun say here. =X

Marketing presentation today. Haha... It went well. We did something different. Damn funny. Okie I started off the presentation with an indian accent to make everyone laugh because the case study was on an indian company called Bajaj. Then we had given ourselves indian names to role play ourselves as the executives of the company. Haha... Funny.

Came home after that. Yes... Today is the official day I am going to start mugging for the exams. I saw the exams papers for each subject and I realised that for marketing the questions weren't so theoretical. It is one of those papers you can bullshit your way through to a A grade like what I did for my 'O' Level literature paper where all my answers were piles of bullshit about true love between Romeo and Juliet and true love between the mother and the daughter for Joy Luck Club. Haha... At that time after the exam, I thought I was going to get a F9 for the paper but in the end it turned out great... I got an A2 for it. Hhahaa... So for marketing, I think I can put my bullshit skills to use again and hopefully I can get an A for it. OB paper is difficult. Its really one of those exams that you need to know your stuff and if you bullshit you will fail. So for OB, I aim for a B only. For econs and stats, I think it is a paper I will get A if I mug enough. Econs paper looks kind of easy as compared to JC essay paper. It is like structured questions kind of paper and each part is like 2 or 3 marks for some is like 8 or 10 marks lahz. But I think it should be easy. Stats is like got MCQ!! Omg!! Like FM. FM i didn't make it last sem, stats I must make it a A this sem. Okie... So finish with goal setting now I go and get some sleep before I start my intensive mugging session. Zzzzzz...

Stats presentation today. The tutor really funny. She wanted us to show her the data but she said "could you please show me the date." We were like huh? Date? What date? Hahaha... Then later in the lesson for some reason suddenly she said she hate stats. Like huh? You hate stats then you come here and teach stats? Haha... Really Joke of the day. The way she say like really hilarious.

Okie, after the lesson I was dman tired. So, I decided to skip lectures and went home. I was seriously so tired that I really did fell asleep on the train and went into a dream. And I slept and unconciously embarrass myself. I was leaning towards an ang moh sitting beside me. Omg! He made some funny noises and I woke up and said sorry. Then he said in an irritated tone with his strong potato accent "If you want to sleep go back to your bed and sleep." I was like OMG!! so embarrass. And ya I am on my way back to my bed to sleep lahz. But must take train home first ritez? Haha...

Reached home done my marketing presentation preparation and a dry run and went to bed. Really damn tired. Tomorrow meeting early for dry run in school. Yawnz...

Pleasant greetings from Cassie yesterday night on MSN. Haha... We haven't contacted each other ever since I left DBS. Haha... Quite surprised that she will add me to msn. Yiwen asked me to go out and study with her today. Haha... Sorry lin-mei... I got school until 630pm lahz. Haha... Somemore sit beside my pretty mei mei got no mood study man, your display picture on msn really look like Zhang Shao Han!! I am serious about it... Really look like her, I swear! But only that angle horz. Haha...

Damn sianz... School sucks... Exams are coming... I feel stressed but I just don't want to start studying. Whats my problem!! Okie... Today's excuse for not studying: lessons end late, back pain, damn exhausted. Haha... Tomorrow prepare for marketing presentation. So only can start studying on Friday. I better adhere to my study plan I just drew up. Jia you!!!!

Did alot of things today. Econs tutorial, Stats tutorial, comm. mgt. written task, and marketing case study research. Haha... Never do any revision. Haiz... Haha...

Guess the whole of next week will be a busy one. Got two case study presentations. Stats is on Thursday and we haven't done a single bit. The worst part is it must be done in school. The software required to do it is only available in school. Damn sianz. Who has the report? Who knows how to do? Send me the related files as reference !! Or perhaps to copy!! I need it badly!!! Haha... =X Although the tutorial for this chapter is like not difficult but the case study is a big HUH? WHAT THE HELL YOU ASKING????

Okie... Chill... I must be too stressed. Haha... I am looking forward to Saturday... Hope the plans to celebrate someone's birthday will be realised. Shsssh... Cannot say who... Its supposed to be a surprise. Haha... =X

Mugging day!!! Haha... Went for tuition, came back for lunch and started mugging at 1400hrs sharp. I only managed to do 2 chapters on the previous marketing lecture - channel management. These chapters are damn long and intensive. But no excuse progress is slow. Seems like my plan to complete marketing by this weekend is not going to be successful. Haha... I realised that I couldn't stay focused for as long as I can last sem. Today I could only focus for 2 hours and I cannot go on already. So I went for a run at the stadium, some chin ups... Haha... The run definitely perk me up. So I came back bathe and dinner. After dinner, TV and continue until now - 2 chapters completed. Haha...

Koda Kumi - Futaride
Remember this melody? The previous time I posted the sad version of this melody titled Yume no uta. This one is the happy version. The MV is different!!! I thought it had be the same because the MV contains koda kumi in two different outfits the one in black hat represents sadness and the one in grey hoodies is the representation of happiness. This version, koda kumi fell down and wasn't ran down by the car. In the sad version, she was ran down by a car.


Koda Kumi - Koi no Tsubomi
Cute song. Funny MV.

阿沁 Real - 光荣时刻 New song... Not bad... Like fast tempo...


阿沁 singing songs he composed for various artists. I realised his vocal range also on the high side ya? Haha... Like me... =X Haha...

Feeling damn shag and tired. Marketing tutorial was bad. Haha... Don't like the tutor. He is... Haha... Don't know... Just don't like him. For those who haven't presented your marketing projects, please demonstrate enthusiasm. It is the key success factor for presentations especially if you are presenting to him. Effort is of minimal significance here.

The kino case presentation was quite bad with the exception of the last part of the presentation. It was a mere classification of what was already mentioned in the case into different marketing theories. Where is the analysis? What is the issue? Okie... They addressed abit of a issue and a rather vague and unfocused recommendations section. Something like the website is not up to par, so we recommend that kino should upgrade their website to be on par with its competitors. (In super bad english, its not like my english is power but obviously this one scores an A1 if GP is in singlish) Err... Like... Okie... So I asked the question "One of the issue in this case is that kino's website is too simple, what are the ways you all think kino can do to differentiate their websites from their competitors like amazon.com?" And the answer I got was from the tutor, "Ya,the website is quite primitive." and from the group "We show you the website, kino has alot of work to do for their website." And the group showed a pageone website. The tutor said "Okie, next question." Err... Like... So... I think its either I asked a damn stupid question or its something else. What do you all - those reading my blog now think? Thats why sometimes I don't want to ask questions. I think my question missed the point. I meant that like since they set up a website and its like so simple and "people will rather buy from amazon.com" (quoting the group), that means what is the point of setting it up in the first place, waste resources, waste time since people won't want to buy from your online website. So what if you improve it until it is on par with amazon.com? There is bound to be a switching cost for customers to switch to your new and less established kino website with a less comprehensive database which is not able to process your preferrence as fast as amazon can. So... Since the case study said that kino don't want to lose out and is extending into the online business, the crux of the question is what can kino do to differentiate themselves and what extra value can they generate for their customers for people to want to swtich from amazon.com or any other competitors like YesAsia to kino website? Is making it on par enough for kino to extend beyond its brick and mortar business and into online business ? Okie whatever, I can't be bothered. Do well in exams and stay on my deans list. Haha... Think I am a dumb dumb who just sits quietly in one corner without contributing much in class? I am more than just that. Haha... Geniuses are often misunderstood or perhaps never understood by mere mortals like... ... fill in the blanks. Haha.... Well... Should brush up on my communications skills and presentation skills so that my points can get across and not remain as a stupid points. Haha... Trying my best now. Haha... No offence ya. I am not trying to run down the group presenting kino nor am I trying to make their lifes difficult by asking such a "stupid" question. Its just my 2 cents worth. I had a feeling that the tutor thought I wanted to make their lives difficult because normally I won't ask questions in class. But since he warned that audience repsonse and state of mind is important, I as a audience want to demostrate that I am in the right state of mind for lessons and am repsonding to what the group have presented to their audience. Haha... Enough said... tata... Enjoy ya weekends.

Stats lesson all alone by myself. Haha... The tutor showed the statistics for the stats test. Highest is 8 and lowest is 1. And there was this group of people trying to be ya ya papaya in the stats lesson making alot of noises saying that they know how to do all the tutorial questions and they were confirmed the ones who got 8 marks for the test. Like "-_- can. Volunteer to do one question regarding the sketching of 3 damn simple graphs depicting the rejection region for null hypothesis and they proved to be hopeless, useless and total fools. Such an easy question also can do wrongly or perhaps don't know how to do at all. Even someone who didn't go lecture, didn't touch the notes, didn't go see the online lecture knows how to draw but yet this group of people who boast themselves to be the "experts" in stats couldn't do. Sometimes, you just wonder what are these people thinking...

Met mindy to get the marketing case study of a god knows what indian company called bajaj (okie maybe its damn famous but I don't know only. Haha... =X). Then lunch and lectures... Couldn't catch anything at all. Saw Yihan outside LKC... OMG!!! What happened sia? He became so raggard. Take cares buddy. Exams coming only what... No need to be so stressed until become like that. I also damn stressed that exams are coming actually. Haha... So I started my mugging session today on marketing pricing management chapters. I spent like 3 hours reading and writing notes for it. Not bad... Quite fast. But it is short of one section because I couldn't carry on anymore. Nvm... I considered it done. Tomorrow will be for channel management. Consdering the time spent for the chapters I completed today, I estimate that I will be able to finish my first round of reading for marketing by Sunday 1159hrs. Hope that by then, I will become the marketing guru who can engage the audience response and could take note and control my state of mind in marketing tutorials. Haha... Wish me luck in my crazy mugging expedition. I will really stay at my desk without rest to mug for the whole of weekends. I shall reserve Sunday night for comm mgt written task. How I wish I possess the bombastic command of english that wenqing possess. With that, I think my written task will be perfect. Hahaha... Okie... End... Eat and sleep...

Today OB presentation. Haha... Due to last minute changes and my headache yesterday I didn't manage to prepare my speech well enough. Haha... I am talking to my script again!!! But well... Not really. I feel that I am improving and picking up the tempo to present with confidence and not to rely heavily on the script though still nervous but I am now able to observe more of the AUDIENCE RESPONSE.

Haha... Val nodded her head in full agreement many times when I was presenting, Daryl listening in disagreement and confusion to my points, Liling shaking her head profusely in between certain points with puffy lips showing nuances of disagreement and disdian for my points, Xiao Yun nodding with a slight smile and the rest sitting and staring at the slides with blank expressions. Haha...

Perhaps this is what the marketing tutor is referring to as observing your audience response. So... With such observations, think we should devise a strategy to arouse the attention and persuade the audience to buy our points. And of course the strategy cannot be just confined to doing something funny as I feel that focusing on jokes or skids to arouse the attention of the audience is drifting away from professionalism. I suppose the only way is to speak with such confidence that you exude a kind of charisma to tell people that your content is right so that they will nod in agreement instead of shaking their heads profusely like as though some flies were pestering the person. Quoting Kimberly: "To arouse attetion in a witty way." Yes... In a witty way not by doing stupid things with minimal link that will make people laugh because of the stupidity and not the content, such attempts may prove that "we are trying too hard". Not that I am criticizing anyone or anything in particular, its just a general comment and also one of those reasons why I refused to do a skid and sing a song in between someone's speech to break the flow for the marketing project presentation.

Okie enough on presentations. Just my 2 cents worth. The OB tutor suddenly realised and discovered my existence in the class and asked me to ask the class a question. Damn funny.

OB tutor: "Zhenn... yu... (trying to pronounce my name) perhaps you can ask the class whether they think that a leader should be born twice or born once."

Me: (thinking that since she asked the complete question already...) "Erm... ya... please answer the question."

the class: Silence...

Hahaha... Skipped chem elective... wasted 2 hours in school before deciding to go JP because wenqing REALLY had a craving for apple pie. She did something funny and to save her some face I better not say it here. Haha... Damn funny...

Came back school after that for comm. mgt. lesson. Haha... My last sem tutorial mates were in the previous comm mgt class and they saw my new hairstyle. Haha... Many commented on it. Sobz... I know it looks ugly. I shall wear a cap to school for the next one month until my hair grows back to a longer length. Haha... No lahz... I shall try to find a way to style it nicely. I realised that the way the stylist cut makes it very difficult to style, she made it very lifeless... The layers are all of equal length and if I comb down the fringe I will look like a coconut head. Great, it didn't look like that when I was at the salon. After her styling it looks weird but it didn't seem so lifeless. Haha... My hands got no life to style my hand with life. Haha... Talking nonesense again.

Okie... this entry is super long and wordy. Just let me finish up. Maybe nobody read up to this point. Did my stats tutorial... Wah... So many questions. I gave up when i reached question 10. Perhaps I could continue doing a few more questions on the train tomorrow morning. I don't feel tired yet. Haha...

Haha... I slept at 3am and woke up at 10am and I don't feel as tired as when I try to sleep early and wake up late in an attempt to feel more energised. Haha... Now I know the trick - make yourself so tired that you fall asleep once you lie on the bed and wake up at the usual time you wake up. You will feel more energised. Haha... I was compiling the powerpoint slides for OB presentation than. Haha... Checked the NTU mail and found this email:

Hello team members,

I thought I will provide some additional comments about your presentation. These are my observations and you ought to consider your own observations about audience response during the presentation. I will not repeat my comments made in class and do note the discussions that occurred.

Try to remember your own state of mind during the presentation and think how you can improve in future.

See you all in class.
Best regards

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Movie House

Good effort overall. Your preparation and presentation were well done.

You will need to re-calculate the financial data and evaluate your cash flow. This may impact your plans - so it is necessary to be accurate in this aspect.

Erm... Haha... Its from the marketing tutor. I don't know is it good or bad. Anyone can interpret for me? Okie the part on audience response I understand. Must be my problem never look at the audience and him enough when presenting. But the state of mind... Er... means what huh? He thinks we are out of our minds when we were presenting is it? Haha... =X

Nvm... We still got last chance for the bajaj case study which I think will be much of a disaster as well. I can't find any information for this company on the net. Whatever... State of mind... Haha... I find this very funny don't know why. LOL...

Today, I am particularly irritated by someone. Haha... Okie maybe I overreacted. But just couldn't stand this person today.

After school, I went to cut my hair because the fringe is poking moi eyes and it is so thick that its getting a bit warm. It ended up as a disaster. The stylist cut it way too short and now I look like shit. And its not like I didn't tell her not to cut too short. Great! Yesterday I was still telling candy how important a person's hairstyle is and next moment my hairstyle is a disaster. This is the beginning of bad karma for slamming people too much. It must be that I haven't chant enough sutras. I shall chant overnight to make up for all the slamming. Candy remember to chant or else later your hair will be a disaster as well (maybe something along the line of hair cannot comb properly? Haha... Joking =X) Haha... But I shall forgive the stylist because she is so cute cute. Haha... The way she talk reminds me of Xingyu. The girl who likes to call me di di when she is like younger than me. I wonder how she is after she left DBS. Haha...

Woke up early today. Did my econs tutorial and OB presentation slides. For the first time, I am not going to be kan cheong about something. I will just wait and see. Haha...

Feeling down since friday but I felt better after chatting with lee peng online. Thanks for hearing my out ya. =] Haha... She also complained about the ah tiongs in her elective project group. Haha... I only learnt of the meaning of the word recently. Haha... I wonder why this name for them. It sounds like the name of the person whom was being hated by most people in school during secondary school and JC. Of course this person had a tiong in his name and his best friends call him ah tiong. Mention this word to some of the people in my sec sch and jc and you will get the respond like "EEEEEEKKKKK is he dead?" Haha... Recently, I saw this person in Orchard and he didn't recognise me at all. Haha... Not surprising at all man. Most people from my sec sch and jc don't recognise me anymore. I saw Irene the saxophone player in my sec sch band in school so many times and she didn't recognise me at all. As I was packing my cupboard just now, I saw a picture of myself taken when I was in sec 4. Omg!!! I realised that I had transformed. Comparing the me now and the me in the past I realised the true meaning of the classic word "toot". Haha... Okie, I am not slaming myself but its just amazing how I have transformed so much over the years. But of course the transformation is only the physical aspect. I have yet to transform much for the less physical aspect and I realised I have forgotten to control my emotions well recently. I used to be one to be able to control my emotions very well and I am losing it fast. Its time I picked up again and to never release my emotions childishly anymore. One thing that has followed me is that I am always pessimistic and cynical and I have yet to changed on this aspect. Haha... It is also my skeptism that helped me realised the true self of many people who say one thing and yet do another. It is the skeptism that helped me see through the true self of some people. My skeptism is accurate and I have never lost that. Its just a matter of time before my skeptism becomes reality. Enough said. It makes me sound as though I am a very scheming and cunning person by using the word skeptism. Haha... Well, I am one of isn't afraid of slamming myself because being able to slam myself means I am able to face my own shortcomings and I will be ready to deal with it soon. Haha... It getting abit heavy. So let's just stop.

Time for dinner. Steamboat at home again. Why? Because mum wants to finish the abalone left in the cupboard for weeks. Haha... Can cook other things with abalone? Why must be steamboat? Haha... Don't know. Just eat.

Hmmmz, I am blogging so much. Haha... Obviously this is a situation of a person so busy that he becomes extremely free. Meaning got so many things to do, but he just don't feel like doing anything. Haha... So I went to youtube and found these:

2 different versions of 非你莫屬. I personally like Tank's version. Haha... Which one do you like?

Tank


林依晨

I fucking overslept today. The maid of my tutition kid called me and asked "Are you coming to teach tutition?" Haha... "On my way!!!" Haha... I was fucking late for the tuition and somehow I just felt pissed off. The stupid kid can never remember what I taught him. So I got fed up and for the first time I scolded him big time and he gave me attitude. WTF!! Give my attitude? You think I fucking care? As long as I sit down there and teach what I am suppose to teach as though I am talking to the wall and get my money at the end of every 4 lessons, I don't care anymore. He want to listen, don't want to listen is his own problem. Waste his mum's money only. And if the mum asks me why his son never improve I am just going to tell her "You can ask your son why." I bought his favourite Pokemon mechandise for him to motivate him, I teach and explain everything nicely to him but in the end, he just cannot remember a SINGLE thing I taught him. Mind you its really NOT A SINGLE THING!!!! Its not as if I never teach properly. Enough said.

Today is a sunny saturday. I am just gonna rot at home. Rest rest after a busy week of presentations. Phew. Suddenly I realised there is OB presentation on Wednesday. OMG!!! I had done nothing at all for it. Just can't rest in peace. It continues...

Just came back from momo. Haha... I never knew that momo was so small until today and the music there sucks. Haha... Jun Yuan is really one siao tabo and I am his "gay partner" who likes to go siao together with him outside. But we not gay lahz... Its just a name given to the two of us by the others. Haha.

Dance production by NUS temasek hall was there at momo. Haha... I thought it wasn't really impressive. Their dance moves just lack the kind of punch. Haha... Aiyo like I know how to dance like that. Better don't say liaoz. Haha.

Oh and I finally know where is this giraffe restuarant Abner brought his girlfriend to for some celebration. It is opposite PS. I saw it when I was in the taxi just now. Haha... Obviously I am damn sua ku. From the exterior, I could see that the restuarant got a very good ambience. No wonder Abner brought his girlfriend there. When he told me, I still thought it was some ulu pandan restuarant nobody goes to. But turn out that it was a restuarant so kinda classy.

Marketing project presentation, some thought that we did an impressive job especially Kimberly. She told us that we did a great job and to not be affected by the tutor's expressionless face. "Some people are just not good at expressing themselves" quoting what she said. Haha... Some including the tutor was expressionless. Great. I knew that despite the effort we put in to do almost everything possible to make our presentation or project work well, the tutor will be expressionless. I can't tell whether he thinks its good or its bad. He gave some comments and I take it that he thinks its good. BUT, his good I think is maximum B. For A, he will use the word impressive as he had used on Kimberly's group before for their first article analysis presentation. Haha... Whatever, marketing is a disaster module which I aim for a B only.

Thats all. Sleep. Nitez...

Stats test today. Omg!!! It is as said freaking easy. But... I couldn't do the two probability questions. I only thought of the answers after the test. Kana sai. Hopefully can pass. Still thought of getting full marks. Its like wait long long lahz. Haha...

Backs at home, rushing through the marketing presentation preparations. I am dying now. I did alot of things. I printed the posters mounted it onto cardboard to make it look pro; printed the special name tags; printed the menu; did my script. Finally its done! Tomorrow is the day. Hope I don't screw up like how I did yesterday for my comm. mgt. presentation. Wish me luck once again.

Met up for OB discussion. Haha... Loads of jokes.... Val gave us some really valuable advices for our marketing project as well. Oh gosh. We have lots of things to touch up on our marketing project. Jinlin was busy deciding what special perofrmances he should be doing for the next presentation and we suggested the Chicken Little dance while he was obssessed with a head moving sideways stunt which he had been practicing since the last OB lecture. Haha... Bitched about some people who truly "like" and the dumb dumb OB tutor. Haha... =x

Went JP swensens for lunch. Haha... We had the Executive lunch. It was a good deal and we were saying that it a prelude and preparation for our comm. mgt. presentation as we were supposed to be a representative from some organisations. Haha...

Waited 30mins outside the class because the previous class ended late. Haha... Presentation was a disaster. The slide show ended in the middle of my presentation and returned to the windows screen halfway. Best. I panicked and it ruined my presentation. To add fuel to the fire, the tutor was frowning throughout my presentation and giving me the I don't know what you are talking about face. What the hell... I am not speaking chinese, I am speaking english!!! Stop giving me that face. Kana sai. But think she does that frown to everyone as Kimberly suggests, she is "cute" in a "funny way". Hahahaha... She was on a bitch fit as Candy suggests. Agree to the power of infinity to both statements. She is really a bitch who likes to wear thin cardigans with nothing underneath revealing half of her saggy boobs. Keep those boobs for your husband!!! We are just students, we don't want to see your boobs. Thanks.... Save the "best" for your loved ones!!! To make things worst, she must ask everyone who came out with their own acroymns to conclude their presentations whether it was their own idea. My acroymn was clever. Of course it was my very own idea!! I am clever enough to make a acroymn called clever!! What rubbish! She made it sound as though we could steal the acroymns from some website. Although she asked everyone I felt offended because of the tone she used. Like so unbelievable for me to come out with such a brilliant acroymn. "The clever... (pause) Was it... (frowns, and scorns in disbelieve) your concept?" I replied "Ya!" full stop. Crazy woman who enjoys showing her breasts. Nobody bothers to see lahz... really... keep them... it is obscene!!! Haha... =x Okie. Better stop flaming. The lesson ended at 7pm. Great, I literally rushed home.

Reached home, studied for stats. The more I flip the pages in the book the more I realise the chapter on Linear Programming is like nothing much. All the concepts are the same but they put it in different situations. Okie... Hence, I decided that I am done with the revision for stats test tomorrow. Wish me luck. May I get 100%. Haha.... Obviously dreaming.

Momo on friday night. After the marathon of presentations and tests, its time to relax. Haha...

Today is my free day. Tremors from sumatra earthquake was felt at many parts of Singapore. The epicentre of the euartquake was 430km away from Singapore if I am not wrong. Many skycrapers in the business district swayed and tons of people panicked and evacuated from their buildings. Some cried while some fainted as they had never felt such tremors before, others were nonchalant continuing to work in their offices even when their desks and chairs were moving by itself. My sister got half day off work because their building swayed twice in the afternoon due to the tremors. Although we felt nothing at home, my mum was so scared that she asked for me to stay at home and we had to eat instant noodles for lunch. Haha... She was also worried that my grandma could have problems getting discharged from changi hospital. But everything was fine. The tremors were not felt at the area it was not supposed to be felt. Haha... =]

Limin chat with me online in the afternoon. Haha... News sure spread fast. Lena told Limin that Victor approached me to go work for him in DBS again. Haha.... And she said that it is the "Admin Crisis" in DBS. The new admin executive and admin assistant are leaving soon. Lena is leaving also. No admins left. Haha... Limin quotes Lena "He wanted someone familiar" Imagine I am in my holidays now and I accepted Victor's offer I will be clearing the shit from three workers from call centre all the way to haw par. Luckily I am studying, if not I would have accepted it and before I know I will faints with neverending work which Limin had once experienced before. Haha... Good thing is mayb the call centre got new sales executives who are chio? 0_o

Prepared for my comm. mgt. presentation and studied for stats lect1-4. Haha... Okie... Satisfied. But there appears to be alot of things that I still don't know. But, I just don't care. I am sure the things I know are the essentials and the essence of the chapters and the small things I don't know yet are but small fractions of the chapter which are not important. Lect 5-6 tomorrow and I will be off to take my quiz. I learnt from candy that the quiz is only 20 mins and there were like quite a few questions. Are the coordinators mad or what? Obviously is not enough time to finish lahz. But, hopefully I will be one of those who can finish. Haha... =X Wish me luck.

Zhuliang and the rest are celebrating Yitwoon's birthday today. I didn't go again because I have already planned to do my things today so I didn't want to go out and ruin my plans. If only I was informed earlier I could have gone. One weird thing is like you going? Like erm... go where? Never receive my msn message? Then like... erm... no... Is my msn having problems or what? Or its just an announcment on the personal message slot. Sorry man, I don't go around examining all my friend's personal message. So, I personally feel that the bare minimum of a sincere invitation would be at least a true message to the person himself or herself be it on msn or sms. If not, its like how I know man, most of the time I on my PC and it gets connected to msn itself and I do my own things leaving it alone. Just my 2 cents worth, no need to agree or disagree or feel bad or feel annoyed or upset. Its just what I feel. In addition, I always don't go is because everything is last minute and I have planned my own schedule to do my own things and I don't want to ruin it. So asking at the last minute just gives me the feeling of asking for the sake of asking. Once again, its just a feeling inside me not that I totally feel that way and there may be positive ways of thinking about last minute arrangements like everyone also arranged it last minute and could go.

Okie, my language is bad and most of the time people misunderstand my badly worded paragraphs. But, its just my feelings on things and I may be wrong most of the time. Having said that, the reason I know it might be wrong and still put it up here is because I was feeling that way at that point so I will write it down. Overtime, when I read back I will think that I was damn stupid, childish, sissy or whatever to feel that way at that time. That way, I will learn to not commit to feeling that way under circumstances and learn to control my emotions better. So, please don't let my feelings here affect you in any way.

Project meeting 930am today. Haha... Victor called to asked me to go back to work in DBS again. Haha... But I studying lahz. So cannot. I told him my holidays starts on the month of May. Haha... Hope he remembers me when he needs more workers to clear the shit at the call centre in May.

Didn't manage to help Yiwen with her marketing in hospitality essay. Sorry lin-mei. Haha... Ge ge got no time. Haha... Hope you can figure it out by yourself ya. =] This song that Yiwen said she enjoy singing in ktv that time, played on my mp3 so many times today. My mp3 siaoz already. Keep repeating the same song. The song is "Mr Q" by Jolin. Haha... I must say the song makes me happy. Haha... Don't know why also. Maybe because it is fast paced. Okie, I got the MV for you all to see. Haha... Got Edison Chen inside but don't know what the MV is about lahz. Haha... Just like the song.


Wah, just now saw Tank on TV. He really very li hai! He can play and sing one song in 4 different styles. Steady pom pi pi! There was one style he played in 6/8 tempo. Damn pro. How did he manage to arrange the melody of the song into triples just like that? One word. PRO!!!

Haha... I did abit of OB reading for the sake of the group meeting to prepare for our case study presentation. So happy that I actually did something. =] Tomorrow I need to do 2 important tasks. One, study stats lect 1-6 all at one shot. Two, prepare for the comm mgt. presentation task. Wish me luck. Haha... I hope I can really finish the two main task. Okie, tomorrow is free day. So 830am 3km morning run. Haha... Okie I know its like peanuts to everybody to run just 3km but well, just a small exercise lorz.

Yesterday, I went for the AIESEC Seminar at 1 Marina Bolevard. Haha... Initally, I was too lazy to go because the dress code was formal and the seminar was damn early lahz. But then, in the end I went because I woke up early and I promised Huifen if I woke up early I will turn up for the talk. Haha... It was a seminar worth going man!!! It was a seminar about branding, innovation and social responsibility. I love the branding presentation by one of the "50 Gurus who have shaped the future of marketing" - Hermawan Kartajaya. He definitely live up to his name man! Now I know what is called "presenting with passion and excitement" that my marketing tutor said was lacking in my previous article analysis presentation. So we took a photo with him after lunch:















Some were ready to go out and gai gai liaoz, so they changed out of their formal wear and into their gai gai outfit. For me, it was home. Haha...

When I reached home, I fell asleep lahz. "-_- Until at night after dinner then I started to do some work. I edited the marketing project slides. Yes... The whole night was spent to do only one thing because I was multi-tasking watching some HK drama serials my sis rented. Yanfen and Candy the show got Bosco Wong again. Clearly, my sis is also crazy over him. Suddenly the shows she rent all got him one. Haha...

Okie today, I went to give tuition. The grandfather thanked me for teaching his grandchildren, he said I was a good tutor. Haha... He always complain to me that the previous tutor didn't teach and explain to his grandchildren like I did. Haha... Yay!! I am pro... Someone give me a medal for that. Came home after that and once again sleep. Really pig lahz. But I manage to wake up at 5plus to finish my econs tutorial. Yay!!! Another medal please!! Haha...


Sianz... Tomorrow school starts again. Project meeting early in the morning 930am.

Oh my god, time flies... Recess week is gonna be over and I have done nothing much. Lots and lots of things to do and there seemed like there isn't enough time. This sem is a busy sem plauged with projects and presentations almost every week. Presentation takes time to prepare for people like me who isn't zai in presenting. As opposed to last sem, where there isn't really any presentations that needs prior preparation and all the subjects were just pure understanding and there weren't need to read up; this sem is the direct opposite. Of course as a science student I am suited for subjects in last sem while arts students like candy will be able to cope best this sem. "we swtiched roles" as candy says. Haha... I truly agree!! So... This sem, candy please go ahead and take my place in deans list, I will be back next sem for that place.

Well, as for the rather upset, gloomy, depressing or whatever you call that previous post. I must stress that I really meant things. Things that appear once in my life and things that really follow me through my life. It wasn't refering to people as in other posts when I missed or I weren't ready to face or meet people I will mention people. The previous post was indeed a self reflection of myself and my inability to kick my old habits and change for the better. A inner self frustration that I had to let out. Perhaps it was badly worded.

Anyway, I thank and appreciate the efforts my friends and someone who was once special to me to express their concerns for me by asking me out recently again. I am assured that I am not forgotten by you all. But I have to apologise for not being able to turn up for any of those gatherings because I was really busy doing my stuff. Of course, my stuff does not encompass only school work; tuition, family affairs, and of course my own time and space to rest, relac, exercise or to just walk around alone. So... Please do not think that I am not willing to meet up. When I do not even have enough time for my stuff, I dare not tink of allocating my scarce resources for any other stuff. Call that selfish but thats me. I can't sleep or eat well if my work is left undone. So... I am sorry. But once again thanks for everything you all have done. Do not worry that I will be as depressed as I am in the past, I will not. I have learnt to be strong enough to brace myself up and not feel depressed anymore. Maybe my blog sounds depressed from time to time but they are just thoughts inside me that I must release. So blogging is a good way to release my depression and carry on with life happily.

Some things just appear once in your life, some things stay in your life forever.

Sometimes you thought you are trying so hard but it turns out that you aren't even trying.

Certain things just follow you.

Are there even ways to change.

Where, What, How?

Pessimism stuns your senses.

Optimism gives life.

They can't co-exist.

Choose one.

Where are we?

Back to where we came from.