OB presentation today... Haha... Jinlin put up a splendid presentation with his magic tricks and true enough the prof was so delighted. My presentation seems so very pale in comparison as I basically read off my cue cards or rather stips of paper stapled together which Jinlin thought it was super comical when I flipped and talked at the same time. Haiz... I am so disappointed with my presentation, I just forgot everything and had to rely so much on my script. It was a complete fiasco. I give myself a D for that. Well, at least I never stutter and I hope that I will certainly do better for my next presentation. =]

A better tomorrow!!! May we find friends that can click with oursleves. I miss ktv. I miss everyone's voices. I miss the time when we could experiment acapella in ktv, one person sing the melody and the other try to "he yin" by singing two semi tones higher or lower. Well, when will I find these people when they seem to have vanished from my life together with the end of something else? Could things have been different if I had not made the decision? How long can we embrace things that doesn't work? How far can we go? How much longer can I hold on? I am not depressed. Its just that I badly miss singing with people with a passion in singing, a passion in music... Its also not that there aren't such people around but its just so happen that they never have the time for me... or do we want to face the reality that perhaps they just couldn't click with me anymore and they want to avoid awkard situations. Shrugs... Nobody knows... Study hard, get a honours, get a good job, earn loads of money, buy car, buy condo, give my parents tons of money and have a nice comfy bed to sleep in every night. Thats all... Till then, sleep tight and may we wake up to a smiley thursday... Cheers... =]

Its a fine sunny Tuesday for me to rot at home again. Haha... Have been figuring out how to grab the video from youtube and than convert the flash video grabbed into a format that powerpoint supports so that we can have videos on our presentation slides. Yay!!! I succeeded!! Victory!!! Someone please give me a medal for my hard work. Haha... Fancy me rejoicing over a skill that people have already known for 10 years. =X Well, at least I learnt something.

Readings readings... My free day is reading day... Reading my OB articles... Yawnz... So here I am doing something to curb my sleepiness. Not going to nap in the afternoon because I will suffer insomnia at night. Haha... Yes tomorrow is OB presentation prepared my script and its like so short and lacked substance... Haha... Whatever... I think the dumb dumb prof. also won't listen much. Just pray that the class won't have people like the marketing class, who is trying to find fault in everyone's presentation. Haha... Well, lucky he failed to attack my group because I shoot him back and he just kept quiet and nodded his head when the tutor asked him so does that answer your question? On top of that, his assault on the next team was a futile effort when almost everyone of the group retalitated to his duanting questions. Nay nay ni poo poo... Too bad... Try to act smart when he is not smart at all... Haha... =X Bad karma... Better stop...

An unexpected call from NBS asking me to go for a lunch with the DEAN on wednesday!!!! Omg!!! Haha... Okie I am damn haolian... But I am really happy and I want to announce to the whole world... Victory!!! I reap what I sow!

Time for some emotional issues. Omg... I realised that recently many people are feeling upset due to so many many different reasons. What happened? Haiz... I feel sad, I feel sorry, I feel bad for their plight. As much as I am upset over many things, I take it as part of my life and I try to brush it off by concentrating on my studies, talking nonesense, making lame jokes and do stupid things to entertain myself. Thats life... Smilez and stay happy... =]

Garden Sisters' - 逆风 MV Okie the MV is lame but the song itself is nice.

Sunday sunday its mugging day!!! Haha... I finished my stats and econs tutorial and finished reading OB chapter on motivation at work and making mind map for the chapter. Yay!!! Finished mugging and completed the tasks I set out to finish by sunday. And guess what? I still got time left!!! There is never not enough time to mug just that I didn't want to in the past few weeks, bluffing myself that I didn't have time to mug. Haha... Went out with mum and dad for grocery shopping and had hokkien mee with abalone slices at the fengshan hawker centre for tea break. Yummy!!! Nice nice!!! One nice bowl of piping hot ah baling in almond milk soup in this cooling sunday makes a fulfilling tea break. Haha... I am rotting away now, listening to music... Sunday sunday after mugging its rotting until you get to eat an sundae. Haha... Gone mad... Typing nonesense again to waste time... Haha...

Its friday, one of my favourite days as well, because lessons ends at 1430. Marketing presentation turned out fine. The tutor said that he liked the clean cut and straight forward approach we took and he commented that it was good of me to explain how we look at the issues as it helped him to establish his train of thought. Haha... Good comments all the way but I guess he is the kind of tutor who gives only good comments and save the bad ones until the end to prevent demoralising his students which may result in dis-interest in the subject. Whatever it is, its time to prepare for OB presentation next week and source for an article for marketing presentation the week after next. Went to look at magazines which may potentially contain the article we wanted. Wow!!!!! So many... I found the harvard business review and I flipped through... Oh my god... The articles are so damn bloody lengthy. I hate such articles as you lose your train of thoughts by the time you reach the end of the article and you forget what it is talking about in the front. Hence, I moved on to look for other magazines. Found World Business, the magazine that clara was looking for the other day. But sadly its the old issue. Nevermind, I just bought it anyway because I saw an article reagrding customer loyalty that may be used for the marketing presentation. Flipping through the articles... Wow... I like the articles... Concised and focused. =] Yay... My drive is coming back, the feeling to mug is slowly creeping back, the heat is rising... Time to get down to work and strive for better results!!! >.<

Its a marathon of preparations for presentations every week... This week is marketing next week is OB and the week following next is marketing again. Tired both mentally and physically. So lucky to have good team members. Many many nice things happened this few days. Can't remember much. Only remember today... Haha... Recieved a belated bdae prezzie from candy and a belated surprise bdae celebration in canteen B by my beloved tutorial mates of last sem. A million thanks!!! Love you all... Haha... Saw Louisa in canteen B, told me about Jiaxian's cheer leading. Haha... Damn funny. Met many many other people in school... Like hong jun making me look like a fool when I called him ah hong and he just walk off, but he realised after a while that I was there. Haha... Thats all... Time to sleep... Nitez... Zzzzz...

Today is Tuesday, my free day as well as my favourite day. Yay!!! Went out with Rihui intending to flash the firmware of our Sony Ecrisson phones at the service centre but in the end we didn't due to some reasons. Haha... We went for lunch at Ting Tai Feng @ Wisma after a futile effort searching for the shop Pull and Bear in Wisma when it is in Taka. Apparently, I was blur enough to say that mayb this new shop not opened yet. Haha... Okie I am damn mountain tortoise who haven't been to town for a long time liaoz. Ran into Yitwoon on the streets doing part time tour guide. Haven't changed a bit... Still the same old him...

Have been receiving quite alot of belated birthday msn messages from people. There were 2 today. I can say that this year is one of the years I received the most birthday wishes from people I know, even from the most unlikely people. I think my year ahead will be so blessed. Thanks everyone!!! I feel so blessed this year. Haha... =]

There was no dinner today because my mum went shopping with my sis. I was supposed to go for archery in the evening but I was too lazy to go. Sorry Jiahui, always fly your kite. I will try to make it for the Feb shoot. No promises... =X Anyway, because I was lazy I was at home with no dinner. So... I cooked my own dinner with everything left in the refrigerator. Tada!! Presenting da Cheezy Tomatoez Pasta:
Okie... I know what you all are thinking... It don't look appetizing but its really nice. I wished I could give everyone a mouthful of my masterpiece. There were mushrooms, prawns, pork, stir fried with millet pasta (I think, don't remember the name), cheese, tomato paste plus water and a little seasoning. Haha... Cheers...

Went to give tuition and YES... its payday... Haha... I went shopping for some formal clothes just in case I spend the money on other things and am left with nothing to buy formal clothing which is kind of essential for my marketing presentations coming up soon. Going for an interview tomorrow at raffles place for the position of a sales and marketing freelancer. Hope I get the job because it will help build up my resume and of course give me more cash. Haha...

Its mugging time now... OB readings... But those tiny words make me sleepy... Zzzzz... Well, do it at night then.

I like this song by 曹格 titled 背叛. As I told yanfen, this song is so suitable for me to sing... or perhaps the lyrics just fits so well:

雨 不停落下来
花 怎么都不开
尽管我细心灌溉
你说不爱就不爱
我一个人 欣赏悲哀

爱 只剩下无奈
我 一直不愿再去猜
钢琴上黑键之间
永远都夹着空白
缺了一块 就不精采

紧紧相依的心如何say goodbye
你比我清楚还要我说明白
爱太深会让人疯狂的勇敢
我用背叛自己 完成你的期盼
把手放开不问一句say goodbye
当作最后一次对你的溺爱
冷冷清清淡淡 今后都不管
只要你能愉快

心 有一句感慨
我 还能够跟谁对白
在你关上门之前
替我再回头看看
那些片段 还在不在

Its my birthday today... Haha... Many birthday wishes and smses... Thanks to all... 1 prezzie from my all-time tutorial mate wenqing... Thanks... Haha... Of course not to forget the really "pleasant surprise" my nice tutorial mates from last sem created fo me. I am sure "I liked it" lahz!!!! Haha... =X The best part of the day is seeing Tang Lingyi in marketing lecture. One of the top 24 contestants of project superstar. She looks so cute and trust me she looks 10 times better than when she was on TV. Best still, she is michelle's good friend and candy's sec school mate... Haha... Hmmz... Michelle best prezzie is to make her my friend k? No need buy prezzie for me liaoz... Haha... =]

Woke up at 12 noon... Its my free day but I wake up so late wasted a whole morning. I aimed to finish my OB and marketing readings today. However, when I opened the textbook and I see the vast amount of readings I have to do, I felt kinda lazy to fulfil my goals. I had just finish reading the Project GLOBE article and the Johnson and Johnson Case Study, and I tell myself this is quite enough for today. The GLOBE article was SOOO LONG and the font was so tiny... It just goes on and on for like more than 10 pages talking about almost the same thing which is something along the line of leading and managing in different cultural dimensions. I wonder how to analyse and give a critique of the article based on the rubric because its like I can't remember everything I just read. Nothing goes in... Argh... Wasting my time. Forget it... Enough for today... The case study was short but I don't get what the questions are driving at. This semester's subjects are kinda different. Readings readings readings and more readings which is what I hate most, because I like to listen and understand.

While it was my free day struggling to do what I hate most, my previous tutorial mates were having their stats tutorial. Haha... The whole class was on MSN chatting. So funny... Okie, correction is almost the whole class with the exception of few enthu ones who really access spss to do their stats tutorial. Haha...

Yay... Rain and shine... The sun is out... I am going swimming and hopefully I get a darker face and not be mistaken for putting on make up due to my white ghostly face. Haha...

張韶涵 - 夢裡花 MV I like the instrumentation and arrangement of this song. Haha... Enjoy!!



張韶涵-其實很愛你 MV This song is nice. I like it...

Its a cold morning... Shivers... Haha... I was woken up by the voices of my mum and dad quarreling. Haiz... When will I stop waking up to voices of quarrelings? Soon kuey for breakfast. Helped mummy cook curry. On PC, chat with Clara on MSN. Not feeling as upset as yesterday anymore, was really kinda pissed off with some people as suggested by my msn nick "some people just care for their best interests causing others agony... if you are one of them fuck off..." Yes... Really fuck off from my life, no matter how smart you are I don't need your help, to get your help I rather depend on myself. Thats all... Don't worry lee peng its not you. Haha... Just in case, you worry that its you cos you chatted with me yesterday night. You have been a great friend who has given valuable advices, though you are not very smart... Haha... Joking... =X Listening to songs as usual... Comfortable morning lying on the comfy cold bed enjoying those melodies... Realli like this song by 卓文萱 titled 对你的爱...

Its a cold night... Shivers... Haha... The econs course documents are finally out. I printed it out and did the tutorial straight away. Just finished it. Listening to angela zhang's new album. Omg!!! I am kinda disappointed with the songs in the new album. Haiz... None of the songs entice me neither did it attract me to want to listen to it a second time. The only song which I think is nice is 其實我愛你.

Stats tutorial is a hell lot of questions. So lazy to do it. Not going to do it. The questions are like... they know me I don't know them. Forget it... Just listen and take down the answers in class.

Till then, I shall rot away... on my comfy bed of course... Haha...

What is a relationship? What do we want from a relationship?

Hugs and kisses?

Understanding?

Those mixed feelings and those memories lingered on my confused mind as I slowly fell asleep.

The issue of compatibility - does it even matter?

The issue of being able to enter his/her life and relate to each other's life? Is it even possible?

The idea of just being able to stay happy together - Is it enough to keep it going?

The tough decision of letting go and clinging on when it finally comes to light that you couldn't extend happiness to the other side - Does the other side ever knows?

The irony of knowing and yet not knowing what you want - Does it hinder you from moving forward?

Why start a realtionship when you know it wouldn't even work in the first place?

Why start a relationship when you don't even feel for the other side?

Is it just for a taste of love or is it that you are true?

Are you doing things for the relationship or for him/her?

Those memories, my own experiences, others' experiences from work, school and army friends... Some saddens me while others enlighten me to a whole new perspective of relationships.

Okie... Talk about yesterday first. OB and marketing lecture. Omg... OB seems so difficult. I didn't catch a single bit from the lecture. Marketing was alright. Saw candice, jiaqi and jiaxian in the marketing lecture. They taking it as elective. Haha. Getting econs textbook from jiaxian. After lecture went to buy OB textbook. Haiz... I got OB textbook used last sem from someone already only to find out that this sem the textbook used is a totally different one. Darn!! Waste money got to buy the new one. Wanted to share cab out of NTU with candy but there wasn't any cab in sight. The bus came and we went off in the bus. Haha... Think the cab didn't like candy because there were tens and thousands of cab passing by the exact same busstop today. Oh I helped candy carry her textbooks she exchanged with some guy, and someone said something. Don't know whether you heard it candy. Haha... It took me a while to figure out why that person said that.

Today was econs lecture. Omg!!! Its a waste of my time. It was boring maybe because I studied it before. Haiz... If only I studied for econs in jc and get a B for it I wouldn't have to attend this lecture. Met huifen while boarding the mrt to go home. Haha...

Rain rain rain again... Sianz... Can't go running or swimming... Staying at home to rot again. Its a signal for me to start doing all my tutorials. Seem to have lost the drive to study for this sem... Whats missing???

Apple announced its long awaited iPhone... Wow!!!


Nice sleek design as usual. It packs a whole lot of functions: 16 M colours touchscreen display, multi-touch input method, accelerometer sensor for auto-rotate, proximity sensor for auto turn-off, Wi-Fi 802.11b/g, bluetooth v2.0, operates on Mac OS X v10.4.8, 4/8GB internal memory, 2MP camera. I like the fact that its music player is iTunes and even on a mobile phone it looks exactly like the iTunes on computer with all its album art displayed.



Downside of this phone is the camera. It is not powerful enough. 2 MP only and I think there isn't any flash or even camera light. But well, once its launched I think it will sell like hotcakes mainly because of its design and branding, who cares about its lousy camera. Haha... I wonder if its Mac OS X will be a laggy OS like that of Windows Mobile on O2 and Symbian OS on some Nokia phones.

Today was a bright and sunny day but I have lesson from 1330 to 1830. Haiz... No time to go swimming. But it was a day full of nonesense by myself... Went for my chemistry elective, and I was on a lookout for chio bu. Haiz... In the end, I told wenqing this elective got no chio bu sia... Then wenqing said walau you come lesson don't know for what. Haha. Yanfen came late as usual, she is never early for lessons. Oppz... =x She went to meet this damn yandao who has a car to exchange textbooks. This caused the rise of another joke when yanfen refused to let me and wenqing help her with her heavy books. We went crazy and started to disturb yanfen saying that she didn't want us to help her with the books because it was from the yandao and she didn't want to lose the yandao feel, and when finally we helped her with the books I went crazy by saying that I was drawing the yandao energy from the books so that I will become a yandao. Haha... Gone mad... We went to have some food at can A and proceeded to wait for a girl who was going to sell me her stats textbook. So wrong of me to say that I wished she was a chio bu because this caused two mad women sitting beside me hysterically speculating whether each girl walking towards us was the girl I was waiting for. Goodness... She was ok looking lahz... End of story... Haha... Next!!! As we were looking for our lesson venue, there came Ms C who is perceived to be my dream girl for some reason when I only said she was one of the best looking in my fm class last sem. Wenqing and yanfen kept saying I must be damn happy lahz... and the funny gestures of urging me to talk to her... Haha... Whatever... Saw jin jing and qi da in our class also, and of course ms c also in the same class... Please... ms c got bf liaoz lahz... eugene told me before... So I no chance can... Haha...

Rain rain rain.... Haiz... I wanted to go swimming today, but it rained the whole day. Its the add/drop period and everyone is online waiting to add their electives or change index at the stipulated timing. Haha... It stated 1330hrs for NBS students to use STARS to register for their subjects. But, at 1340hrs nobody could register anything. Everyone was annoyed and I decided to send an email to ask why is it like that. Not long after that, the system allowed everyone in to register for their subjects. Haha... NTU has a lousy system that have contradicting notices on timings open to students to register for stuffs... Apparently a lousy IT support as evident from lousy business IT tutors who do not reply to their student's questions and yet say you are welcomed to ask me questions anytime. Bullshit... =X Oppz... haha... However, its the end result that matter. In the end, that student whose question was never answered got A for the subject. In the end, everyone registered their electives and changed to their desired index. Hence, it is no wonder that the tutor and the system is always cock up and never improves. Enough said. Complains, whins again... I must stop that. I pray for the rain to stop and the sun to come out... Haha...

Its the first day of school today... stats lecture at 830am. Damn early. Yawnz... the lecture was crap. Learnt nothing. Went for lunch at JP with my old tutorial mates. Haha... Jokes... Funny comments and lots more... Enjoyable lunch... Thats all, feeling damn tired... Going for a run at 430pm later. Hope the sun is still strong, need some tanning, think I am looking damn pale. Haha... Of course training for the upcoming IPPT... $200 shouldn't be a problem... $400 needs serious training... so lazy... zzz...

Went lido to watch deathnote 2 with kavan today. Nice show... Haha... Walked around went to kino and borders to browse through books and magazines. We chit chat and then at around evening time we head for home. Haha... Listened to my mp3 player on my journey back home. Its getting cranky... songs skipping from time to time. Its time for a new one. Hmmz... What should I buy? Preferrably a cheap one... Thinking of an ipod nano the old version one. Think the price should have fallen. Anyone knows the price?

Went out with some army friends... played pool... everyone wasn't in the mood to play... juz hitting the ball for the sake of hitting it, and waiting for the opponent to win. Haha... Went for dinner at the Xing Wang HK Cafe followed by a movie - Borat. Omg... the show was... was... beyond words... can't describe it. After the movie, it gave the same feeling as Tenancious D. I am sure my tutorial class people know what I mean. I saw the Deathnote notebook selling at one of those pullcarts in cine. Wah... feel like buying... for the fun of it... but... its just plain expensive. Okie after the movie, we went to tcc for some drinks and chit chat... We made a joke out of whip cream which made me laugh non-stop when the waitress asked whether we want whip cream for our frappe. The waitress think I am crazy lahz. Haha... When gavin's drink was served with whip cream I added to the joke by saying that the whip cream should taste abit salty. Haha... Jokes... with explicit content... censored... haha... school's is starting on monday, giving tuition later today. It is a dread to go give tuition but for the sake of money, I drag my foot there and try to do a good job. Well, but it always take two hands to clap... So... Just let nature take its course...

Today, met up with clara and nic at bugis. Dot was supposed to come too but due to unforeseen circumstances, she did not turn up. How sad...

We had lunch at sakae sushi. Bad choice by me, because the food sucks. Decided to catch a movie. Went to the ticket area, saw Joe and Gerene at the Capital Card booth. Chat abit with them. Heard news of more people leaving DBS direct sales. Hmmz... Is it really bad there? I think so... probably due to some unspoken manpower problems... =x

We went to marina square in the end to watch a night in the museum because it wasn't showing in bugis, and the movies showing there wasn't to our liking. The movie was funny and entertaining. It is like one of those movies that I didn't feel sleepy throughout the entire show. Haha.

Although, we had few moments of silence when we didn't have something to talk about, it still feels great to be able to catch nic whom I havn't seen for such a long time, and of course clara one of those friends of mine that is always there for me, hearing me out and giving me valuable advices. =] Well, it is time worth spending with great people like them. In addition, I uncovered lies regarding someone whom I always regarded as a friend accidentally.

Liar liar pants on fire. I hate liars. Fuck off from my life. oppz. =x Sorry for the vulgarities but I just think these liars are plain fake and cowardly. If you don't want to be sincere, at least tell me the truth.

It is the fourth day of the year 2007. I started the new year with a spoilt DVI graphics card on my desktop. The story goes like that. On the brand new, fine and first morning of the year 2007, I on my desktop to realise that nothing is on the screen of my monitor. Freak!! Whats wrong!!! I panic.. I on and off the desktop's power over and over again... Nothing on the screen!!! My pc spoilt mehz? Omg!!! After some freaking out, I realised that it might be the graphics card because the desktop is running with its normal engine like sound "zhe zhe zhe..." produced by the heatsink and the monitor is working showing no signal screens. Hence, I replaced the DVI cable connected to my monitor and desktop's graphic card with a normal analog cable connected to the integrated graphics card slot on my desktop. Lucky me... It worked...

Nothing much going on these days... Rest and relax and prepare for the start of a new semester in school.